Blah. I have so much on my mind but I don't even want to talk about it. I just need someone here with me to just let me cry while letting me know that they care and that they are here for me. I am so sick of being so fucking sad all the time and it's just not fair. I try so hard to be a good person and give everyone else the benefit of the doubt ( Read more... )

So, I'm back at school for my senior year, which is exciting I guess. I still don't really feel like I'm ready to grow up yet. But I guess growing up is something you can't really stop. Well you could, but I think in my case that would be a bad decision ( Read more... )

Ugh, I am in such a bad mood. I need to pack to go back to school, but I don't really see the reason to rush. I hate that place, and not having the escape to Mal's every weekend is just going to make me miserable again like I was freshman year. I can't deal.

My summer started off strong with my sister graduating and a trip to Florida. About a week later I found out how my summer was really going to be. I was dumped by a guy that I am better than and he dumped me because I didn't trust him and it caused so much drama between us. Next thing I find out is that all my accusations about him were true and he ( Read more... )

I know that I don't really have that many friends that read this much any more, but this is important ( Read more... )

Okay so I'm about to go to work and I think I have decided that I just plain hate it there ( Read more... )

I don't know if I can deal with this whole the Format being broken up thing. Does that sound pathetic? Probably, but I don't really care. I love them in the summertime. And it's now summer and I had been expecting a new album this summer, but they broke up instead. I almost feel that if they had a new album I would be dealing with my own break up a ( Read more... )

Things just feel so terrible right now. I can't deal with this whole break up thing. I feel so defeated. I still try talking to him more often than I should and it never seems like he wants to talk to me, and you would think I would just get the hint, but he's my best friend, or he was, and it's just like twice as heartbreaking to lose that ( Read more... )

Save up money for books
Lose at least 20 pounds
Meet as many new people as possible
Get up the courage to do karaoke at least once
Write something
Read at least three books
Get happyBe there for my family through out everything this summer is going to bring ( Read more... )

Things just seem so awful right now. I really try not to be pessimistic about life overall, but right now it's hard not to be. It's amazing how you think you know a person, how you used to kiss them on the cheek at the end of a family party because they were just that, your family, but then they turn into something you never would have expected. ( Read more... )