you know what really sucks? I don't have the guts to do the things that I want to do. How ridiculous is that? There are things in my life that I want to do or wish to achieve, but I am too scared to actually do anything about it. That's awful. that's sickening. I've gotten too comfortable living a life that I hate, and that's actually not living at ( Read more... )

So.. Mal and I have broken up.. again. Well, I guess we're labeling it a break, but I kind of wonder if I suggested that because it would be easier for me to handle if I looked at the situation like it wasn't actually over. It sucks, I just miss him all the time and everything reminds me of him and I always just want to talk to him. It's a lot ( Read more... )

I just got back from a nice trip to Florida with the boyfriend and two of his friends. It was fun. I even went to a spa which was amazing ( Read more... )

I'm not sure whether this is a good thing or a bad thing ( Read more... )

So, It's been a while ( Read more... )

So spring break has pretty much sucked and I can't wait to go back to school. It didn't relax me and I didn't really have much fun. I mean, Mal was here Tuesday until last night which was really nice, but we didn't actually do anything. I really wanted him to have fun and spend time with my friends which didn't really happen, maybe because I don't ( Read more... )

Hellooooo spring break ( Read more... )

This entry is mostly for Kristin because I haven't gotten a chance to talk to you yet about Valentine's day... lol. It's for me to recount a really good day too though ( Read more... )

Last weekend Mal and I had a wonderful one year anniversary weekend. It wasn't exactly like perfect and romantic, there was a lot of crying and talking about our relationship, but I think it was something we really needed with our whole getting back together and trying to really make it work this time. He also tried soo hard to make it a special ( Read more... )

If anyone has been thinking about ordering anything from China any time soon, I might just advise against it. I bought Mal an anniversary gift today off ebay and I was so excited because I thought he would like it and it was really inexpensive. After I win the bid, I wait to find out the shipping charges and holyyyy crap. I pretty much freaked out ( Read more... )