No one remembers who I am on here & that's fine. I need to write & sort things out ( Read more... )

I wish I knew how to make things different.

One year ago today I went on my first date with Eric.
He cries when I cry. It's the first time in my life anyone has ever done that.
I couldn't be any happier.

Today, I was at the hospital while my sister got some blood work done for her pregnancy. For some reason the lobby was full of exceptionally old people even though we were in the baby unit(I'm not sure of it's technical name). I saw this one couple, a very sickly man holding the hand of a seemingly healthy old woman. They just looked so happy, ( Read more... )

I just want to be taken care of, just once in a while, & for some reason it never happens. Not even from the people who claim to love me the most.

I give up on depending on anyone except myself, it just all leads to disappointment.

I have planned on updating this thing for a while now & it just hasn't worked out. Everything I try to write ends up whiney, muddled, & unappealing to me. I had a rough week, feeling stuck in place & claustrophobic. I started to hate everyone, even the people I love the most. All it took to get out of it was a reminder that even though I'm poor ( Read more... )

Someone refer ideas to me to do to alleviate boredom. My biggest issue with my life is that I am consistently bored with the things being done. I don't have money to travel or do extravagant things and I feel like I have alienated myself from my friends. I guess my first step could be bringing my friends back into my life and having them help me ( Read more... )

...I still has a livejournal, ohyeah ( Read more... )

Tonight is one of those nights when I wished alcohol & drugs were enough. Why am I so unhappy right now?

I hate that I like him & he likes me & we can't date.