i've got vile starting to bubble. full of anger.

God grant me the serenity before I accidentally verbally gut anybody...

i now live on a farm, with a roommate, her 8 horses, her 2 dogs, and my darling 2 kittens. i write this not being there, but actually in Philly, in my old apartment, in my amazing bed (omg, i had forgotten how great it is), stealing wireless from the neighbors. on the farm it is impossible to steal wireless and given that i've sucessfully killed ( Read more... )

my mother will be here in 12 hours. she finally coaxed me into flying up to drive down with me. i do want my kittens with me. and i haven't been sleeping right. and she did have an extra flight on her hands ( Read more... )

i won $1000 to write about and research beatnik women and i studied the female beatnik all summer.
i met a beatnik boy (who is so like Jack Kerouac that it's slightly nauseating) and had a very beatnik time in san francisco where i found a bunch of key beatnik texts.

a week ago he broke up with me in a very beatnik way and as a result i buried myself ( Read more... )

i fucked up. with everything ( Read more... )

well tonight is going smoothly. sort-of ( Read more... )

i'm the queen of all-nighters. i've got it down to a science ( Read more... )

i don't need a man to be happy. i have kittens ( Read more... )

Lifehouse - Somewhere In Between
I cant be losing sleep over this, no I cant
And now I can not stop pacing
Give me a few hours, Ill have all this sorted out
If my mind would just stop racing

Cause I cannot stand still
I cant be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening

This is over my head but underneath my feet
Cuz by tomorrow morning Ill have this thing beat
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dear world,
make you a deal.
i'll quit smoking, if you let me drop calculus. and tell me its a good idea.

hope to hear from you!

love,
beth