I'm sad for no reason today. I'm just down. Really down. I dont need to be upset that Kev and Bob went to a movie together, but today was kinda supposed to be our day since tomorrow im getting my teeth taken out and he took off. I don't know. Things with him got so overly complicated. I mean, I'm not good and just telling someone how I feel ( Read more... )

I really missed Kev tonight. Almost the entire time I was at work I just wanted to get a call from him. Just to hear his voice. The way it pierces me. It could have just let me know that I was ok. But do I deserve to feel ok? All I care about is me and my heart's safety. What about Kevin's safety. He's the one in real trouble. I should be ( Read more... )

I am in the WORST mood today. It SUCKS. It's not one of those moods that I can just fall out of either, I'm genuinely pissed. While I was looking at Kevin today I realized how much i'm trying to convince myself that I dont need him anymore. But I love him. It irritates me that he cares about me standing up for myself. He hates to see people ( Read more... )

So I talked to Jes tonight. It was wonderful. I can't wait to go home and see her. See everyone for that matter. Things with Kevin have been getting WAY outta control. He spends all my money and makes me feel like shit. I hate that he cant resiprocate love without making me feel retarded. LAME. I mean, sure he says love, his says the words ( Read more... )

So it's been a while. But not too much has happened. My family is wonderful. Well my immediate family has always been wonderful, but my extended family has recently become that much more amazing, in my eyes. Michael came to plainfield for Christmas and I feel like we connected on an amazing level. I mean... it was only a few days, but we just ( Read more... )

I hate that I will never be anyones indespensible friend.

i must have some kind of sick and outrageously amazing power because i have managed to piss someone off that i dont even speak to. and no. i wont hide behind not using names because in some cases... it's not necessary. Jessica posted some blog about how i piss her off and how i cant ever be there for her. well guess what jess, i tried. i tried ( Read more... )

So i've been listening to Robyn at Adam's request lately and i fell in LOVE with this song. it's just so moving and amazing. I even sent it to my dad so he could listen to it ( Read more... )

I can skate now ( Read more... )

I'm making some major life changes and right now... im totally ok with that. It's all gonna be ok. Everything is going to fall right into place. I'm glad about everything. we'll just see what happens from here on out.