where are my friends on here?

I have a new life here. I am learning something new everyday. I ended 2011 with the 3 tattoos, I always wanted. I have one more to go. I have made some new friends and said goodbye to some old. I began 2012 with a kiss at midnight and began the new year in love. Happy New Year. Find something to love about where you are everyday.

I lost my father, my best friend on April 24th 2011 at age 59 to liver/pancreatic cancer. It happened within two weeks and has changed my life in many good and bad ways forever.

Depression is confusing ( Read more... )

I keep wanting to come here and write. I want to write like I used to actually and think about it all the time but I seem to spend to much time on facebook I won't lie. Last week I went through real journals in my closet and laughed and cried at some of my hand written stories, memories and problems through out the years. I miss walking around with ( Read more... )

Happy New Year. Had my first surgery on Wednesday, January 12th 2011 to have a dermoid cyst removed and my left ovary. I have suffered for one year and blessed to have it removed from my body. It was my evil twin. In the end, after many misdiagnosis and different symptoms analysis it was indeed as big as a grapefruit and it was sitting in my pelvis ( Read more... )

I left my boyfriend in October. Live alone. Met some people along the way. Most are stupid. One is smart. He isn't the one who wants a relationship. I had a nice christmas spent all of my time with family. Mostly my dads side. Actually Christmas Day dinner was amazing at my cousin Rob's cabin in the woods. A huge fire place. Candles with dinner ( Read more... )

Although I am still moving and did a heck of a lot today (ran errands and organized bills and house most of the day) I am feeling this anxiety inside and keep thinking about Rob. What's most upsetting for me is the fact that he proposed to his girlfriend on a trip they took to where he and I once spent a wonderful day. I know this is so lame of me ( Read more... )

I am living alone and I really hate it. No kids here.No mom and dad here. No cable t.v. Just a lot of silence here with me. It is nice for a short while but then it just becomes my opened eye nightmare. Some nights I wake up from the nightmares with my heart beating and anxiety that I don't even get back to sleep. I have my niece sleep over when ( Read more... )

I dont know if I am making another mistake or making a good decision in my life. I have decided to leave James. We have been together for a little over two yrs. We have lived together for about one yr. I have a lot of emotions going through my head right now and am anxious to a point where I feel I may barf. I am not cheating on him nor am I in ( Read more... )