i know its been a while, but i feel like there is no where to share my thoughts without idle gossip happening. so here it goes ( Read more... )

I ran into Jose today at Sundance,
he was getting supplies for Curry,
I was buying beer.

We exchanged hellos, and it hit me.
We run into eachother EVERYWHERE!

It is a crazy world.
Is it a sign?

Ill be seeing him tomorrow night.....all night.

i really wish i could find some boy to distract me from adam.

but alas, i look and look and look,
and i remember,

i live in eugene.

which means if your gay your either, ugly, unavailable, or a douchey Crombie Gay.

i hate this town

i hate facebook for one big reason,

seeing tagged photos of your RECENT ex with his new boy, having a blast.

it fucking depresses the shit out of me.
fuck this.

fuck i miss him so much right now.
it hurts so much,
it doesn't help being in this big house a lone all day...

i need love surrounding me right now.

fuck. this sucks so much...i love him so much...

i hate sounding so pathetic....

LJ Friends, please answer me this: If you could choose a career for me to pursue, what would you choose and why? Keep in mind my natural abilities, something that I would be good at, and that you think I would be happy doing.

i feel like i am starting to realize, that i will never make a living off of anything im passionate about. There are just too many artists out there ( Read more... )

whenever i get really drunk,
i have crazy dreams.

last nights involved the apocalypse, a hotel, floods, and me and andrew having crazy wild sex.

wierd.

"This sux. but I think it will be good for you. both of us knowing it wasn't working for you. Babe, I have lots of love for you. Keep in touch."

it is the end.
I ended it.

I needed to do it.

But it hurts a lot right now.

what the FUCK ( Read more... )