I hate these stupid parties and these stupid voices and these stupid faces and their stupid lying everything ( Read more... )

When you're lying underneath me, flushed and slick with sweat and softly cursing in Russian, I instantly fall in love with you.

Why am I sitting here, on my friend's 21st birthday, nursing a split lip, wondering why I feel like such a fucking asshole lately ( Read more... )

So I guess we came up with a real explanation for what's been going on, besides my fears that I've been darkly nursing for over a year. I am so tired of dealing with everything that's falling apart. My relationships. My friendships. My family. I am so tired of her losing her mind ( Read more... )

+ Santa Cruz: lots of booze, lots of nature, lots of driving. Lots of what-have-you. Also almost crashing into a cop while running a red light (who is a genius? certainly me ( Read more... )

My fingers slip somewhere around 87 miles per hour, skin on leather; rubber on asphalt. Raw, untamed power rumbling to life underneath my body and playfully threatening to kill me as we skid, skid, fly. Through the curves. Through the perfect weather. Through the perfect black smog settling down on the city this pretty Saturday afternoon. Things ( Read more... )

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The human addiction is the worst thing in the world
Love of black eyes, the constant itch to...
The angst and desire and rising temperature
The lack of sleep at night, not because of that but it still leaves too much time to think
Being addicted to humans is the worst thing in the world

You know it's an incredibly strange feeling to lay in bed at night and think, "how will I poison myself tonight ( Read more... )

Приходит срок - и вместе с ним
Приходят страх, озноб и жар,
Восторг и власть.
Азарт и нежность, гнев и боль -
В один костёр, в один пожар -
Что за напасть?
Из миража, из ничего,
Из сумасбродства моего -
Вдруг возникает чей-то лик
И обретает цвет и звук,
И плоть, и страсть.

Нелепо, смешно, безрассудно, безумно.