I can't belive it has been a year since things ended.  The worst part about it is that I am in about the same situation I was last year around the 4th of July.  The guy is being a huge dick to me and I will probably watch the fireworks alone, again.  Last year, I sat on the hill and just cried quietly to myself as the beautiful fireworks were ( Read more... )

     Being with you makes time go by so fast, why can't we make it stand still like everyone else?  Laying with you, just existing in the moment only makes me look to the next moment when we'll be able to experience this all over again.  As I'm half asleep, you move my hair away from my face, only to catch a glimpse of me, while my eyes are closed ( Read more... )

     This summer, the situation before us is a little different from last summer: I go off to college, not you.  It's not going to be you coming over to say goodbye.  I can't imagine even trying to say goodbye to you, it will take a whole day at the rate we say goodnight now!  What is going on between us right now is somewhat new and some of it is ( Read more... )

     A relationship in my life has been renewed and strengthened, while another has reached the point of meer destruction.  One that seemed to go sour by the misunderstandings and rumors, has now been well pieced back together.  It is amazing how words get bent, twisted, and distorted; all to fit people's agendas, who have nothing more productive ( Read more... )

     I'm not even sure what to say to you about "us".  The whole situation has left me speechless.  Every other time, I've known what I've felt, and have been able to write: I draw a blank instead.  Suddenly, what I'm feeling in my heart and in my head, can no longer be expressed by the boundries that the definitions of words create.  All I can say ( Read more... )

If this is all it's going to be,

Don't still hold on to me.

It's not worth it for either of us,

And the pain will be so much less.

     The quality of life... I find it amazing that people have actually established conditions in which a person should and should not live.  What ever happened to letting God do His job and not take the job on for Him?  As humans, we are taking on something we do not understand, and making it much harder than the issue really is.  Maybe they do ( Read more... )

     I don't usually remember my dreams.  When I do, it's because it has so much meaning to me, something I only wish would come true: last night I dreamt of you.  I remembered this dream so clearly for some reason, I guess because the subject really hits home.

Lately, our relationship or lack there of, has turned very bitter.  Outside voices ( Read more... )

     The day was long, and full of tension.  Ever since 8:20 this morning, I was on the verge of tears.  Feelings of anger, frustration, and confusion filled a brain that was already malfunctioning on a Monday morning.  Only a hand full of people knew what was going on.  I spent my whole day keeping these feelings bottled up, and once I got the ( Read more... )

     Why do I just wish I could forget certain things that have sunk so deep into my memory?  Maybe because those memories remind me of something I want so badly, but realize it's not possible.  Distance, aspects of another world make it impossible.  The pain of knowing you're gone and that I can't get you back makes me want to forget it all.  The ( Read more... )