the sky opened
i went to bathe
hoping the lightning
would fry me to death

but it only danced in the fields far away
this time there would be no fire engines
muted in the night they travel
to douse out the fire on some cats aerial

the whole street come out
to see whats fucking up their tv reception

dr no on the box

firemen in the tree outside

rescuing a cat

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this much effort to make me want to be the guy i wan to be but i can barely type and barely stand but i have no inhibitions. i guess i am severely inhibited ( Read more... )

apart from my brain was making me flinch and cry out ( Read more... )

i was a man now and i didnt let it rain. the clouds swept in everyday and just rested there, no jets and no burning fuel.

i've been having strong suicidal urges over the last week or so.  nothing would please me more that to die but i cant take the leap. i never have been able to

i dont want to live my life and more importantly i'd sooner not breathe again than live any possible life. my life never has the possibilty of positive change in it

and my life right now. ive ( Read more... )

entombed, i heard it out there living
the wind and i
i wanted to be near
i had to huddle under a bus stop
sheltering from the rain
and the prying eyes of milkmen and postmen

as i walked i realised i was becoming entombed again
this time in my own thoughts and brain
i had to force myself to concentrate on the wind blowing through the trees
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he died a fortnight ago. i only ever met the guy a couple of times but my mum told me quite a few interesting things about him tonight.  him and my great aunt did quite well for themselves as they owned a sweetshop, a barbers and a florist in a town called  woodhall spa. they were able to buy this big creaky old country house with the money they ( Read more... )

so earlier i was taking a leak and i looked at my watch and it said 8 o'clock. after that i went off to make some toast and tea. about 15 minutes later i was reading teletext and i noticed that the clock on it said 8 o'clock so i looked at my watch and  it said... 8 o'clock ( Read more... )

for just a little while

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