ignore that last post as i had my url stolen by mad creationists.

http://the-curtain-hits-the-cast.blogspot.com/

to these new ones  burning-kingdom.blogspot.com

occasionaly leave bed to pace towards somewhere sucking on a bottle of water.
consumed by the dread and sometimes the fear.
still fascinated by the workings of other people whilst not speaking or touching.
still romanced more by fantasy than reality.
even when the skies are blue they can still be an english grey you know.

nothing ever just comes to me. thats positive and happy

i'm getting paranoid about not being able to control who reads this so really this time FRIENDS ONLY. just me and my army of 1 or 2 commenters. or if you wish to add me thats fine too

and my heart is full of anger, spite, hurt, loathing, sadness and all things bad.

and there are no positives. not one and nor will there ever be

so my eyes glaze over and my dreams die underneath my skin and  then i lose touch with reality and get romantic dreams that are even more fantastical and have even less chance of coming true.

what to do? ( Read more... )

everytime someone laughed they were laughing at me. maybe a few of them were.

i realise when i look in the mirror that i am strange looking and poorly groomed but i just dont care enough to do anything about it. after all what would be the point? i live all my life behind walls  and when i go out i feel like i need another month to recover. i just ( Read more... )

.
When I was a young man I carried my pack
And I lived the free life of a rover
From the Murrays green basin to the dusty outback
I waltzed my Matilda all over
Then in nineteen fifteen my country said Son
It's time to stop rambling 'cause there's work to be done
So they gave me a tin hat and they gave me a gun
And they sent me away to the war
And the band ( Read more... )

even though , as always,  profundity escapes me.

currently half way through rediscovering "the blackened air" by nina nastasia. i didnt remember it as being this good.  if we're going to get arsey about it its like meeting an old friend after moving to a strange new place .      : oD

my week. i have discovered that its very very hot. particularly ( Read more... )

i have decided that i am going to join the labour party.  the main reason being that when the next leadership election comes around i can vote for this guy.
 http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/John_McDonnell_%28politician%29

his chances of winning are slim and i figure thats mainly the fault of people like me. who consider themselves socialists and yet are ( Read more... )