i was disgusted with myself. so i wrote this because it emulates how i'd like to feel some day. which wont ever happen, so thats why i wrote it ( Read more... )

LOVE SHOULD FUCKING DIE.

i HATE life.

So last night was Amandas hotel party for her 18th birthday. It was pretty sweet until hotel security came and threatened to call the cops. So Bri, Vince, Tiffany, Chandra, Sally, a few other people and I, all left to go back to Tiffanys. As soon as we got there, everyone started getting shitfaced again, and the party proceeded. Chandra and I ( Read more... )

Well, things are looking semi-okay for this week I suppose. Thursday is the FFTL/MBR/MCS/Matches show, so I'm excited for that. Then Friday, I'm skipping most of school to go with Amanda to get her tattoo for her 18th b-day, then we're off to set up for her hotel party later that night. It should be awesome. But as for now, I'll be sitting at home ( Read more... )

I havent written in almost three days. I guess i've been fairly preoccupied with doing work for my jackass dad, and going to shows alone. How exciting, to go to a show alone and not meet anyone. Life on standby is boring. Im ready to meet someone new, to be loved and cared for again. Im sick of feeling alone, like i have nowhere to go, like i have ( Read more... )

So tonight was amazing. I hung out with this girl for the first time, her name is Karina and she is soooo funny. We went to the mall and I bought some new shoes, and we tried on funny hats and ate pizza. Then we went back to her house and just talked for a couple hours and took some pretty awesome picutres, theyre on myspace if you wanna look at ( Read more... )

So today was one of those days where I got alot done, but it wasnt really anything important. I went to school, came home, did my homework, cleaned out my car, burned some CD's, went to Fred Meyer, and organized all my school shit. I feel like this week has gone by really fast because my mind hasnt been where it's supposed to be. I cant stop ( Read more... )

I GOT NEW EYELINER. AND ITS RED. WOOT FOR ME.

MY DAD JUST ASKED ME WHY I WAS CRYING...SHDGSDJSAJKASJDHJKA...WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU SAY TO THAT? JESUS.