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don't follow
Hey, I ain't never coming home ( Read more... ) -
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everything hurts so bad idon't know if i can do this anymore.
i wish you were here to give me a reason to keep going. -
flipping the switch
tired of being a friend of convenience there to make people feel better when they're down and lonely ( Read more... ) -
...still
most nights i lay awake with my mind just racing, unable to sleep ( Read more... ) -
new lj
this journal is so fucked up=/
the dates have been messed up for a while now and i don't have the patience to fix it so i'm going to change to a different journal and eventually delete this one.
please comment at my new journal to be added as friends.
i'm gonna keep this one a lot more private.
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irritation
those instant stain remover sticks don't really work like in the commercials=/ -
gone
leaving everyone the fuck alone.
i won't bother anyone again.
ever.
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shut off.
shut down.
stop feeling.
stop caring.
it's the only way.
to not be in pain.
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fucking nightmares
i actually slept last night.
a little too well.
i slept so hard and heavy i couldn't wake myself out of it when i wanted to...when the nightmares got too bad.
so i just kept sleeping and my mom raped me in my dreams all night.
and the branding happened again in my dreams.
and those guys raped me over and over in my dreams.
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much better today
after a rough monday and a horrible monday night, i'm doing much better today.
kind of craving pain, though, so i thought maybe i'd go get something pierced after work.
we'll see what sort of mood i'm in by then.