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Juha ja Kalevi...
So i have been infirmed that i will be meeting, if i want to, my two older brothers. They are my full blood brothers , that i have not seen in 15 and a half years. My mother died when i was two and a half on 19 Jan 1992, and a week later was the last time i would see my brothers. They are my full blood siblings, and they don't even now i have, WE ( Read more... ) -
Odd.....
You know i am me, i am Hillevi S.J.K.A-S.P.Panula-Heinonen, myself and no one else. I live a lot of music and like a lot of musicians, but i am myself still. It seems that i have found a whole lot of people posing as someone else. I wonder why? What is the point? It is just over obsessed obsession? Do you know who you really are in life? It is ( Read more... ) -
Life Again, With Ramblings
What is to leave a name behind? What does that name mean? Where does it go? What is the point of knowing?
To live for a point, to make history, to be known. For who? For what? What is the greatest mystery of our being here? A life is a constant question.
We die in vain, each time. To keep a memory, and a name alive, for who, and why?
A man, Antti, ( Read more... ) -
Ramblings of the Tired Mind.
Just some thoughts i had last night, while trying to fall asllep. It did'nt work to well, so i wrote some shit out, and this is some of it.
You see, I have to take heavy pills to sleep at night. I don't like it, but it must be done. My mind plays tricks on my sleeping pattern. I must have a very screw up pattern. One night i can sleep for three ( Read more... ) -
Jokela Massacre
So it has been eight long, sad and tiring days since the lifes of every Finn, and many others were changed. Jokela High School will never be the same ( Read more... ) -
The Beginning
In the beginning, God made Aatami, and ---cut the bullshit. I had to take off to keep my friends, Eero-Pekka and Juhani from beating the hell out ot each other, over some liquor, and so now i am back to make my first posting. What to say...what to say ( Read more... )