Everything's turned upside-down in my life. People who were hurting me, aren't anymore and the ones who weren't, they are. I feel so helpless right now. Is there no way out? Exactly what is my purpose in life anyways? Is it to make others happy or myself? It feels like I'm coming to the edge of a cliff. Do I leap and soar or fall? Enemies, everyone ( Read more... )

How do you stop caring about someone? It's weird, of all the guys who've been in my life, I've been able to disregard all of them, except for three. One I'm extremely happy with at the moment, and another is like one of my closest friends, even though I won't admit it. And one is like a punch in the stomach. I want to care nothing about him, but ( Read more... )

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I feel weird...and it's not a good weird either. I guess that since eighth grade my classmates and I have been addressed as "The Class of 2006." Well...it's 2006 now. What'll I be afterwards? Kim? Fitzy? Miss Fitzgerald?! Blah! I think I'm starting to feel the pressure. I want to do so much, but there's so little time. I want to get my grades up ( Read more... )

Today was eventfull. I went to school with presents, I distributed them to those whom I knew I possibly wouldn't see over the vacation. I even gave John a gift, which were cookies, but when I gave them to him. He didn't say thank you. He didn't even look at me. I wasn't expecting anything, but...I figured a "thank you" would show that he ( Read more... )

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It's kinda funny how I go to therapy and today I'm suppose to learn how to forgive myself for all the little mistakes I make and still punish myself for. Sorry, the funny part is that i'm home for about 20 minutes and already my mom starts beating on me. She yelled at me for missing one homework assignment and for doing poorly on one English test. ( Read more... )

Bah, I'm so bored right now! I'm sitting in the school's library, procrastinating against Hamlet. Goddamn Kunz, just HAS to ruin English for me. Earlier today I felt self-destructive and I didn't know what to do. I was going to go to Guidance, but no. I'm not easily going to admit I need help. So I sucked it up and dealt with it. I feel slightly ( Read more... )

I'm so stressed right now. I've already bought gifts for 5 people and I'm already broke. I'm getting my paycheck tomorrow and then I have to go shopping again. What really bothers me is that people whom I never intended on getting a gift, is asking me what I want for Christmas. I'm like "WTF?" I tell them not to get me nothing, cause in reality, ( Read more... )

I'm debating on whether I should ever sleep again. My dreams dig into the darkness of my heart and wrenches the memories out of hiding. I wake up only wanting to sleep forever. I think I'll buy some caffine pills after Christmas. Speaking of Christmas, I've finally started my Christmas shopping. I'm kinda proud of myself. To be honest, I don't know ( Read more... )