So once again, here I am venting about how I feel because when I tried to talk to him about stuff, it just goes right out the window.  I get attacked by all these scathing questions, and it's hurtful that all he does is question me on everything I feel.  It makes me feel less certain of who I am and how I feel and makes me feel like I'm not allowed ( Read more... )

I'm writing because I'm lost.  At least sort of.  There's a lot of shit flying around in my head and I haven't been able to get it off my chest. I mean, I've talked to my friends about it but it's stuff that I need to tell Trevor ( Read more... )

Never mind that last post. All is well. There is no posting of any kind about Trevor, other than he's my sanctuary.

It all started near the end of New Year's Day. Okay, I found out about something Trevor did, and there's a huge long story behind it, but basically I asked him to come over so we could talk about it. My mom came downstairs (because she ( Read more... )

I wish I could stop crying. I feel so pitiful, but it hurts so bad. Oh my gosh does it hurt ( Read more... )

*deep sigh of relief*

I can only say that 4 full days of NOT seeing my boyfriend, and HARDLY talking to him can take a toll on me.  I was starting to worry that I wouldn't see him tonight, but all is well and right in the world.

He surprised me actually.  I really wanted to do something just the two of us for a change. The reasons behind this are ( Read more... )

Well ( Read more... )

Apparently my grandma Twaddle doesn't really like Trevor ( Read more... )

I'm afraid. Of a lot of things. The list is probably never ending, but I need to get some things off my chest. I need to feel safe. I need to feel secure. I just need to vent to the few people who read my journal. They'll understand, and they'll know. That's all I want...I just want people to know how I feel. No body has to do anything about it, ( Read more... )

It's so true...oh how it's so true! I would do anything for my significant other. *sigh* I like having someone else I can dote on. I like making someone else happy becaue it makes me happy. But I like for them to make me happy too. Trevor does that. *cheesy grin* I like this... :)

The Devoted Lover
77% partner focus, 47% aggressiveness, 50% ( Read more... )

I'm highly amused right now because at this very moment Trevor is looking for this site.  Well, looking for my journal, and seeing as how this is it...he's looking for LJ. He's not gonna find it until I give him the link for it.

Well...he might, but I doubt it. This puts a cheesy grin on my face.

I'm at home right now, trying to get over that cold ( Read more... )