ah, and then my anxiety settles to a dull roar. now i can collect my thoughts.

excellent.

you can't change the past.
things can always be worse.
you just have to keep moving.

these three truths help me live.

what do you do when you are always the eye of the storm?

Regardless of what anyone else feels, I'm going to be happy, so screw you guys! I'm here to make music and get better at it, so that's that.

On a significantly more depressing note: Day with the family. UGH. But if I get to see the ferret today, it'll make everything okay. I miss her a lot.

...why am I awake.

it's hard for me to put myself out there, but i really need you to pay attention to me! i've been trying so hard to just talk to you, but obstacles keep popping up in the way. i know you're a busy man, and that's why it's so difficult for me, because i don't want to feel like i'm making things harder on you ( Read more... )

why is it that i have no trouble getting a hold of people when i'm fine, but when i really need to talk to them, they have things to do ( Read more... )

I never have time to post anymore. ;-; So busy ( Read more... )

i am crazy busy all the time.

oh music majorism. why do you do this too me?

...but i'm getting pretty good at this flute thing. it's quite lovely.

how are you, rest of the world?

You know, I looked back and I realized I really did try, and it wasn't my fault that things ended up the way they did. Some things were, but you... I did everything I could.

But I wouldn't be who I am today without you. For that, I thank you.

Hi, my name is Michigan, and I'm weather-retarded. Not only have I had several large snowstorms every few days, but bouts of freezing rain, followed by warm weather, followed by rain, followed by ice cold temperatures that froze all of the water, followed by MORE FREEZING RAIN. Now, I'm going to have a giant thunderstorm tomorrow, with a high 60 ( Read more... )