A new journal for a new chapter in my life.

shefingerpaints

Moving on...

I have come to the conclusion that I am not as impressionable as I used to be.
I used to care so much about who liked me and why people didn't like me.
I have no shame so think what you want.

I'm happy now and NO ONE can take take that away.

I own my life. I own my happiness ( Read more... )

SEVEN days left of summer! Ahh, I don't want it to end. There are some people I haven't seen since the school year ended and I fucking miss them but other than that, I don't want to go back ( Read more... )

I feel so empty right now. I think I am giving up. I don't have the strength to keep trying. Ten years from now I can't hate myself for not trying. I've tried so much, so hard, and now, two years later, things remain the same. When you love someone so much I think the best you can do is respect their wishes. I don't want to ruin her life anymore ( Read more... )

I wrote a little something last night. I hate the way my mind spins with thoughts right before I fall asleep. You can view it here.  It's really for one friend  in particular but after I read it a few times I found that the first stanza could be for any new friend I make and how I handle it.

I can't beleive there is only a couple weeks left of ( Read more... )

Today Ashley blew up on me. We were arguing about my tan [yeah, childish] and she claimed I was a bitch to her and started going off on me how NO ONE LIKES ME BECAUSE I'M SUCH A BITCH AND THAT PEOPLE PRETEND TO BE MY FRIEND....well guess what? I don't care...because I have Georgina and Yvonne. I'll always have them and I need no one else. I have ( Read more... )

Okay....so that last entry..[it's friends only] I shouldn't have wrote because it makes me sound like I think abotu him all the time...because really, I don't. I could care less about him. I guess going surfing the other day and being were we met and standing in the place were we shared our first kiss...and were he carried me to shore when I split ( Read more... )

Yesterday was a looooong day! First off, I didn't sleep at all the night before last night...and the night before..and I think the night before that. I got maybe 4 hours in different time periods. I didn my usual...get coffee fromm Lighthouse when they open at 6. Then went to Shannons to feed her cat [bc they are out of town] Then I came home, ( Read more... )

I went to SPC the other day to take the college placement test. I did wonderful on writing and arithmetics. I need to take reading and algebra over. Walking into that school for the first time was scarry. I had no idea where I was going. Once I found where I had to be I felt better. The people there were very nice. I'm going to take a photo class. ( Read more... )

So...my last couple entries weren't geared to anyone specific. well...maybe in a way, but not really. I use this journal for myself...so I feel better. I can rant on and on in it and it can do anything. that sounds kinda weird but you know what I mean. I look back on the entries and learn from them. I DO NOT use this journal as a way of ( Read more... )