Okay i'm still out of a job... I looked at my Bank of America Online Balance Statement this morning, and now they are crushing me to -252.09.... This is pure bullshit, I put that fucking ATM Deposit in for 80 bucks on the afternoon of the 6th, and they're like "Oh well since it was deposited after 2pm that was our cutoff time for the day" So they ( Read more... )

Let me start off by saying, I hate this fuckin' subject. But this subject is my life ;_;. It never really is positive, I was hoping, from my last entry, that things would have gotten better. I don't think they have. Money apparently runs this world, and no matter how hard or long I work, i'll never have enough even for myself ( Read more... )

Soemtimes I feel like that is so. Yet still I know that my parents never wanted that for me. Unfortunately that's how things are turning out. My life fuckin sucks.. Don't mean to bitch about the obvious, but i'm basically losing faith. I'm under so much stress that it sometimes feels like an anvil is pressing against my chest ( Read more... )

good evening everyone....or should I say morning, what's everyone up to?..... grr >< damnit, can't see anyone's journal entries, Steffi's are coming up blank :o *scratches head* *passes out*....*twitches*

It's hard to sleep nowadays, I guess it's just me, i'm looking for a better job, I think i'll get one, so that would be better for my position... My dad is still locked up, although his trial is in December i'll know the exact date tomorrow, i'll update with it ( Read more... )

Am I? It's funny, even on the day of which I was born, only those to acknowledge me were my immediate family members, in fact even the only card I got in the mail was from my aunt and uncle and they didn't even get my age right this year! LOL! Apparently they think i'm 18 this October 18th >_> lol ( Read more... )

As I think back, in my mind, that cannot be put into words, I dont know how, but I remember every detail of my first plane flight February 13th Friday, through 2/18 Wednesday... how did this come upon me like this? It's almost scary how much I remember everything, almost like I stepped into that cold off the plane two minutes ago...

sometimes I get really close.... Guess i'm not a very happy person.. I only wonder how much longer I can hold back...

I hate this life.. I would be happy if I didn't wake up tomorrow.. just... fuck it... there is no point for me here

Friday the 13th is hell, I lost my wallet... and 500 cash ;________________;