So as Ralph suggested I sent another message to Philip yesterday. It was a very nice, friendly and absolutely non-pushy message, wishing him a nice trip to Berlin. But he didn't reply. I sent it at 2 pm when he might be in his tavern, but when it shouldn't be so busy. Anyway, of course I am disappointed by this. But I am ok. It means I will ( Read more... )

Yesterday I went for a nice drink with Vanja. She has a boyfriend now, who sounds like a great guy. But as it is with many people, once they have the "perfect" thing, it gets boring and they want something else. So after 1 month she is doubting to stay with him. I swear, I never wanna be like that ( Read more... )

Monday morning, back at work and updating LJ ( Read more... )

Okay, I haven't heard from Philip since yesterday morning, but I'm not gonna freak about it anymore. I actually feel very positive, calm and happy ( Read more... )

Ok, so I texted Philip yesterday. I decided I would text him after art-academy. So I was nervous about it, but when time was there I got into another state of mind and just did it. When I had send it, I thought it might still have been too indirect (let me know if you are ever up for a drink)and he probably wouldn't answer ( Read more... )

Yesterday I tried twice to write a post, but they were so negative I decided not to post them ( Read more... )

So I haven't heard from Philip anymore since friday noon (2 days now). Of course I would love to hear from him now, but I'm ok. Yesterday in the morning I started chanting and this peace fell over me. Material happiness and pain will come and go, but a deeper spiritual ground will always be there. That realization made me so calm, that I felt ( Read more... )

I'm sorry about this morning's post, but those things play with your heart and mind ( Read more... )

Aaaarggghhh...I'm becoming crazy of myself. The contact with Philip has reached a very low point. I think it is like 1 message a day. I don't know what to expect, but my hopes are very low now ( Read more... )

Monday I didn't hear from Philip, but I had a nice talk with the friend who told him about me. He said he had just mentioned my name and said he should get to know me and that's it. He also adviced me to play it cool and take things as they come. He didn't know what Philips intentions are and probably Philip doesn't know himself. I mean, we ( Read more... )