I am stressed I am realizing
and I am also realizing that it has to do with my economics

which is shit.

and so I am concidering to looking for a job 
where I get payment under the table. 
That seems like an only retional solvution 
UNTILL I'll find a job that I want. 
A serious job
that according to my values will categorise me as stable and normal person.

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ny proces igang
sårbarheden kravler frem
til grænsen
og når jeg er der
bliver jeg yderst provokeret

defenssiven tilspidser sig
og jeg skal nu være fremme 
og tippe den til den anden side
som er (af)reaktionen
ked af det heden
tristheden
rensningen

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I think I am afraid to be loved.
I realized that I get all jumpy when I get a jest or project that some person might fall for me or like me in the 'more' way
I am understanding now that it is also about being out of my control
which is spookey
why would I want to have control over other ppl's feelings for me?

all it is is a compliment
nothing else that ( Read more... )

.. for those who have been following this short but frustrating proces.
This is the result:


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Going to experience George Michael in concert tonight.

it's gonna be very special ..
it's Trine's and my present for each other for our 4 year anni
and lately so many good things have fallen on place
outside
and personally also for each of us.

George incapsulates that with a song.

Flowers, tears and kisses~

.. there is no static.

I've finaly finished my application for the job as personal consultant in a temp agency.
I mailed to Morten the coach, he found it creative and different enough to be catchy ..
One with take it or leave it attitude =)
I mailed it yy
I must admit that I am exited

Found another add for the same position but as a trainee
and I'm just as interested so I'll ( Read more... )

Lesson to myself

It is actually me that creates the good atmosphere around other people, not all the others, not always and only
It is me that is creativve, not something others make me, not always and only
It is me that awakes trust and comfortability in people so they want me as a friend, not only me seeing a friend in them

I can honestly say that the double session with Karen is starting to have its effect.
I sense how my body is cleansing
How every little cell is tingling and almost tickling

I finally got my answer
and as Karen said: you can practice with the other students and experiment and on, but this one was very important
and that is why I wanted to help you. And ( Read more... )