A late night at huddle house, I hope that this doesn't become habit again. I did this 2 years ago when I lived in Carrollton cause I was alone, deathly alone at those times. I do not feel the same as I did in those times. I do not sit at the railroad tracks waiting for the next train to roll along. I do not stand with my nose just inches from the ( Read more... )

I can't say that I am over-joyed at the thought of posting. Having lunch somewhere, sometime with carrie, BYM is playing Saturday. At the moment I am depressed and want nothing more than to just stop existing, this is all I do. I don't seem to make a difference in lives around me, for they are all living theirs. My priorities are all screwed up, I ( Read more... )

I feel as a man being lead to the gallows ( Read more... )

I sit here welcoming in the new day, which is already 3:30am and I sit alone. Not just feeling alone, but physically alone. Caleb is in Gatlinburg and beth is with Lafe. This day that is to be for love and romance, I will be spending alone until this evening when Beth and Lafe will arrive at the house with some other people beth invited over to ( Read more... )

Stay on Ambien as much as possible and get up long enough on Saturday to try and write some music with patrick. I'm feeling really ill today, but I know this only matters to me, it always does. No one can truly know what it feels like in here. Everything not worthwhile to my life has returned and I am left feeling as though there is no point to ( Read more... )

Not really wanting to talk or discuss much this eve. The past couple of days, I have been visited from the Gods of Sickness, this time with a stomach virus in mind. I had to regurgitate, and I hate that as much as I hate shitting. Not really a tactful statement, but it is what it is ( Read more... )

And the winner is, AMBIEN. Sleep makes the hurt go away, It makes the mind stop talking. It makes it all funny on the inside. It hasn't really started kicking in, but I am feeling groggy. So I suppose that I am just going to amuse myself tonight. Not too much different from other nights. Giggling behind closed doors, I broke my devil stick, so now ( Read more... )

Beth ended up getting a bit sick so we could not run off to her aunts 80th birthday party. I went to Birmingham and went to a dungeon party and was given a new leather paddle. I ended up getting home around 2:30 am. Did a bit of odds and ends, nothing special, nothing grand. Just another pointless post.

SARASOTA, Fla. - The body of an 11-year-old girl whose abduction was captured by a surveillance camera was found Friday in a church parking lot, and a mechanic has been charged with her murder ( Read more... )

Tried to go out last night, just to get away for a while, and the sad sort that I am, I ended up at Corner watching Sean and Daniel play some gay ass game on a computer, how sad am I? I just wanted to get away and be alone, but I don't think I wanted to be that alone, cause I go looking for people to be around. Maybe it's more of a change of ( Read more... )