I’m sorry I spent so many hours analyzing the socio economic implications of Queer As Folk on gay men. I’m sorry I’m influenced by General Idea. I’m sorry I’d rather look at Vito Acconci than spend time re-reading the same Stephen Shore book, the same William Eggleston book, the same William Christenberry book. I’m sorry I’m excited by ( Read more... )

sometimes i feel like no matter how much i try to be productive, theres nothing i'm better at than being a drunk. if only i could find a way to get paid for it.

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i can't sleep, can't find my copy of viva hate i had on tape, and can't stop coughing. pj blames the smoking, i blame the laryngitis. i have a frog in my throat, and i don't find it comfortable. i'm curling up to a mug of theraflu and hating you all.

i want to move away from ny. aside from my job, i don't think theres anything here to keep me around. maybe i'll sell all my stuff and move on. maybe i'll give it away.

so yesterday, feeling compulsive (who woulda thought), i bought an ipod because i realised they are significantly cheaper than they have been in the past. $349 for an 80gb!? that's like half an external hard drive! so today i have spent most of my day putting cds on my itunes so i can listen to all of my music on shuffle. it really is a joyous ( Read more... )

i called in sick this morning, since i barely avoided throwing up upon entering the bathroom to take my morning shower. i slept till 12:30, then watched todd hayne's poison, for the second time, since i wasn't able to totally pay attention the first time. i really enjoyed it this time around, since i think it's much more complex than i expected ( Read more... )

i think i have a problem sleeping. meaning i can't do it before 2am.

it's my day off. i stayed up too late last night working on my zine, which i think is coming along nicely, but also might leave me with noone to talk to but pj. not that that's a bad thing, but i would like to keep my options open, and avoid unecessary drama shouuld i choose to go to the metropolitan. i'm not into giving samples... but heres one ( Read more... )

I’m holding in. I’m holding back. I’m letting you go for it. I’m watching you press against me. I’m waiting for you to notice. I’m starting over. I’m starting over. I’m starting over.