thirza loves leave it to beaver. i, however, love pancakes ( Read more... )

sometimes i think i could dissapear into thin air, rapidly evaporating without warning, and noone would seem to know the difference. it makes me wonder when exactly that day will come, and what that expierience might feel like. in my mind i imagine the feeling like that of being on a plane, flying through multiple layers of clouds, able to ( Read more... )

"Let us think of time as a theater. In that theater, we, the audience, are seated in the auditorium of the present. We are looking at a stage hung with a scrim that is the public recognition of AIDS in 1981. In front of that scrim, on a narrow strip of stage, scenes are played out - the early hysteria, the scientific discoveries and setbacks, ( Read more... )

i guess every time something awesome happens with me, for example, me getting a new job, something shitty has to happen to counteract my impending good mood. who wants to see me happy, you know? i don't know if new york is ready for something like that ( Read more... )

i don't understand why this keeps happening. i don't know what else to say besides i feel incredibly hurt, and feel like i've lost something i thought i still had. this was never what i wanted, though i guess i always knew it was a possibility ( Read more... )

noone responded to my craigslist post yet. i guess people aren't as willing to do things for free as i thought they were. it's sort of making me depressed... though i must admit i was definately depressed beforehand ( Read more... )

http://newyork.craigslist.org/mnh/tlg/188069271.html

wooo new jobb!!! woo new clothes!!! woooo PAID VACATION AND BENEFITS!!!! WHAT I'M ALLOWED TO BE EXCITED & GEEKY!

sometimes i wonder what i'm doing here, exactly. i don't have money to buy film or paper, can't pay my bills really, am still working in retail like i was in high school (when i'm working). i keep talking about going back to school, but i don't know when that will happen... or what that will change. i'm sick of being my parents, i'm sick of ( Read more... )

i'm done drinking, i think. so don't ask me to come out to your party or keep you company while your bartending. i'm up for hanging out as long as drinking isn't the main attraction for the night. i need to get my priorities back in order.