Well...in the same hole as always ( Read more... )

I am here. I am alive. it's been 1month 8 days. i already feel better about me and autumn. It's definately better for me to be away from her ( Read more... )

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Hmm...a few things...some concerning autumn, some not ( Read more... )

Funny events.

1)Autumn "Needs to talk" to me...but she wont, typical.
2)I gather the feeling she just now realizes what happened, and is now trying to make some sort of ammends on this. She's not.

Hmm, seems to me if YOU need to talk to me then you should make contact, Don't say that we need to and then never even fucking try. Rather funny ( Read more... )

Well well well...hmmm.

all i hear from her is the parts of what i said that had little to no importance, if it meant something apparently it doesn't matter.

no wonder we didn't work out.
currently my goal is to not get involved in another relation ship until i'm 18 years of age, 1 1/2 years ( Read more... )

So i ended me and autumn today.
I figured "If i can take her and all her perfections and Flaws, with no problem, the least she can do for me is do the same." so i was thinking about letting her know, but then i knew what would happen yelling, fighting, breakup. I decided to go ahead and skip to the last step because it seemed easiest.

She also ( Read more... )

told autumn i'd quit if it'd help her mind on going back out w/ me...iunno how i'd hold up.

it's not a matter of "needing" drugs. I'm not physically addicted, mentally yes... I just want to do them...

let's see how i go...maybe good, maybe bad?

Smile through the hard times. keep your head up. I wish i was strong...becuase this Autumn thing won't work out. she won't let it ( Read more... )

hmmm ( Read more... )