The 3 month stint in Aussie trip get a better out of me.

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take ( Read more... )

To My Babiiisss,

we are not so smart ..  we are big fucking babiiisss. we are timebombs on an emotional landmine. we are our own pawns in our private game. we are our predictable and unpredictable comebacks. we are our own worst enemy for we could easily fall.
but we still sealed the deal and volunteered ourselves for this sick experiment.
why oh why ( Read more... )

I thought the blighter would have been banished by now but what bad, bad luck that he is still around, at large, wasting the world's resources. People like him isn't accustomed to theories of penance and regret. Instead of letting his kind roam around the entire world, they ought to be shot and left for dead in the deepest jungles of Africa or ( Read more... )

Happiness is in the giving. It's wonderful to receive but it's the giving that makes life worthwhile.
I hope you like what I give.

Once u're out of the whole game for quite a while and then you try and do it again .. it is nerve-wrecking. I love crazy. Since im out of practice, i will have to hone my skills again. And then i ask myself why am i doing this? (and doing nothing to stop it from happening).

i can't stop

thinking
hoping
praying
dreaming
wishing
pondering
imagining
staring wistfully into space...

any normal person would have said,
"stop it! it's bad."

me,
i've given up care
thrown caution to the wind

why shouldn't i?

i'm enjoying it.

keluar mulut harimau, masuk mulut buaya

it's amazing how the malay language can so accurately encapsulate one's situation or predicament ...

so here i am at a crossroad of sorts in my life and really, when i look at the two paths that i'm to choose from, is one really any different from the other?

maybe at some point, we had both lied and made ( Read more... )

dear scumbag,
please sell your delusions, your bitterness and desperation sumwhere else.
i don't have the

energy
will
spirit
faith
interest
etc
etc.
etc..

to make the world a better place for you to live in. especially after you'd smeared yours with your own truckload of ignorance and smugness while making a big big mug out of me. it's not preeetty you see. ( Read more... )

For 5 minutes i sat like an idiot trying to think of something charismatic to type. i believed myself to be in an excess of joy. We've all had these moments, haven't we? When you just know. yes? When you're suddenly graced with an access of erotic certainty. It had taken its time, true, but erotic certainty seemed mine now .. nevermind even if it's ( Read more... )

At this point in time, i really wish that i was somewhere far away from this din. I do not know what is the next stepping stone that i should leap on. 
I feel that i have been misunderstood all my life. Innately wilful but all i want is just a glimmer of hope that someday someone would understand me. 
i do admit that at times i have done certain ( Read more... )