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I feel completely and utterly alone ( Read more... ) -
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I forgot what it was like to feel so numb ( Read more... ) -
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I know this is going to sound stupid, because it is...but I have seriously developed a fear of constipation. It is all I think about, 24/7... worry worry worry, that I am not going to have a bowel movement. I constantly feel full and swollen. I feel so dumb even admitting this, but it is the honest truth. It is taking over my life. How the f*** ( Read more... ) -
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So here I sit, in the very place I never wanted to be again- and truly thought that I would never find myself in ( Read more... ) -
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Yesterday I turned 27... where has the time gone ( Read more... ) -
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I am really f***ing struggling and I don't know what to do ( Read more... ) -
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I am trying desperately to pick myself up, and it is not working ( Read more... ) -
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I feel like every time I write here, for the most part, I am struggling. I probably shouldn't even be writing, because we all know that I am f***ing bipolar when it comes to my eating disorder. I don't even want to call it that anymore, because I still consider myself in recovery-- just struggling a lot. I have had so many problems with my stomach ( Read more... ) -
Things are finally looking up...
Two months later, things are finally BEGINNING to improve. My stomach is almost fully back to normal, and my swelling has gone down considerably. When I made it to the GI doc, I was seven pounds up from my normal weight--- keep in mind, I was not eating over 700 calories, because my stomach has been so sick, so I think it was waste and fluid. Yuck ( Read more... )
