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Easter
i had, quite possibly, the most terrible easter i've ever had. nevermind, it was the most terrible holiday on record.
since my parents divorce began just over a year ago, my mother replaced my father with my brother. she allowed my dad to control various aspects of her life, willingly. (quietly complaining every once in a while when she knew she ( Read more... ) -
Writer's Block: The Things We Carry
I alawys have my phone on me. No matter what, I take it with me. I don't want to miss a call from my honey, and I don't ever want to be in a situation that's urgent, and I left it home, or in the car or something.
And I'm always wearing my engagement ring. I could be 20 min. late to work, but I'll turn around just to get it! It means so much to me ( Read more... ) -
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Things right now are blissfully wonderful. Almost euphoric. J and g are out and m is back in my life. we bagan talking again and things really are just perfect. it's such a ashame we spend so much time apart... we are absolutely perfect together. and he's really changed everything that he needed to change in order for us to really work out. he's ( Read more... ) -
The Last Month
The 2 song's lyrics that I've posted are Ex-Girlfriend and Simple Kind of Life both by No Doubt. Stangely enough, they sum up what I've been thru in the last month... in the most sugar coated sort of way.
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend
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I find myself getting frustrated very easily. More so than normal. I want to talk to people about what is going on, but I don’t know how to even begin. I don’t know how many question I want to answer.
I’m going to be seeing a therapist, which I think will be good for me. With what happened last summer and now this, I don’t want to slowly go crazy ( Read more... ) -
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saturday morning i woke to the sounds of my father moving out.
the day before he told me that he was going to be leaving, but had not told my mother yet. i had one of those moments you see in movies when you know something bad just occured to the character; the shot closes in on the character while the background seems to pull away. it really couldn ( Read more... ) -
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i'm on the nuvaring. it's easier to deal with then the pill, so i like it.
i want to see some friends. and make new ones. never feel like i have enough time to go and see any of them. and apparently most of them feel the same way.
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damn. m and i haven't been able to have a civil moment is weeks. it's rediculous. every weekend since the beginning od dec has been pretty shitty. every few days we go into this 2 or 3 day stint of being mad at each other and not talking because of an arguement (usually about something stupid). it's getting very annoying. it also sucks because i ( Read more... ) -
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m and i have some issues with trust and snooping. the other night he accused me of searching his drawers and other crap (which was only half true) but i denied it. i'm not really sure why i denied the whole thing. i think it was only because i felt like i was being attacked. he told me that he tind of booby traps things, but only in the way that he ( Read more... ) -
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M and i have been doing great since he moved in 2 months ago. we get along so well that it's just the little things that drive me crazy. i don't even feel like getting into anything about that right now. he's been working a lot lately, and only nights. every few days it seems, he has to go to for 8 hrs at night and then has to spend another 8 hrs ( Read more... )