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Lately I feel like I am about to tear my life to shreds through some impulsive act. Beneath the constant debilitating stress there is a boiling sea of panic and desperation and I have trouble staying on top of the waves. My rational thought is tired and blunted, checked out most of the time and incapable of completing tasks or making decisions.

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wugh...that sounds very tiring. I'm sorry to hear that you are so emotionally (mentally?) exhausted.

you always have cool and insightful comments for my 'feelings' posts. I wish I has a cool insight for you, but all I can say is I sometimes can relate to the feeling of wanting to ragequit whatever or whoever I am dealing with at the time.

when I am extra tense or stressed, I dream about bugs. D:

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:) into every life a little crazy must fall right? I will say that I'm completely exhausted emotionally. I have been for a couple years. It comes from not having defined values or goals in my life and so not living in a way that affirms anything for me, among other things. It's too bad because I have a pretty good life here but really can't feel it. Ever onward though!