I have these little obsessions, I go from one thing to another, but it's never actuallly about the thing I get obsessed about, it's just about having something to constantly be on my mind, probably to distract myself from being at ease and just living, just being, which I am trying to learn how to do ( Read more... )

those things are cramping my style right now. But whatever!! I'm so happy that it's summer. I forgot how happy and carefree summer helps me to feel.. I love it. This week has been so much fun. I'm hanging out with people again and having good times, this is great.. Haha, I am horribly unexpressive at the moment because I am a moron and keep staying ( Read more... )

I am constantly getting disapointed in myself without a valid reason.. Being the extremely self-analytical person that I am, I have these standards for myself, these new plateaus in personal/relational/spiritual development envisioned in my mind - areas I want to grow and change in, which I am always striving towards.. It hit me today (as it's hit ( Read more... )

Yesterday I bought this cereal that was called "Flax Flakes" or somthing like that, and without reading the ingredients, stupidly assumed it was wheat free.. shoot, i felt strait messed up all yesterday and today again (i ate some more today) and then decided to read the ingredients.. and wheat was the first one, ugh. I haven't eaten wheat in ( Read more... )

Shoot, I'm just blingin it on Craig's List! I posted an old dumb piece of gear yesterday afternoon and the dude just showed up at my house and gave me $45 for it. I'm in the middle of 3 other deals I'm swingin with people too on there ( Read more... )

Last night I danced at Norse Hall. It was kind of cheezy, it reminded me of that trip Katie Russ Traci and I took up to Seattle for Stompy Jones, I won't go into detail, but a few of you know what I mean. =) The music was all that cheesy bluesy rockabilly stuff, not the funnest, but definately apropriate for Norse Hall. I was SO tired and didn't ( Read more... )

I had the happiest day today! The sun was out, it was beautiful out, I got lots of sleep, which was good.. Katie decided to ditch school, who hoo!! Her and I walked around all day and just enjoyed everything together. We actually walked a freaking long way, all over downtown and in northwest, but it didn't feel like we walked that much, and my ( Read more... )

I almost don't even like talking like a gangster anymore. It was fun when nobody else was doing it. but now it's become so *cool*. If I hear anyone say "for shizzle my nizzle" again, i'm going to.. be ashamed for them ( Read more... )

Ok, so every time in the past I've felt this crazy it's always been after a long binge of getting no sleep. Not to belittle what I said, all of those things are very legitamate and relevent, I'm just seeing everything way out of proportion right now. I totally cannot handle sleep deprivation like alot of people, it just kills me. I really need ( Read more... )

I'm having a nervous breakdown tonight. Everything is too much for me to take in right now. I feel so self-absorbed, so incapable of truely loving, and I hate this more than anything. I feel so silent, so passive, when inside there is always so much going on. Well not always, sometimes I'm also just *blank* completely. What the crap is wrong with ( Read more... )