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Hes hurt me immensely, blamed my every effort in life and insulted me completelu
When I broke down, and started calling him silly names again. He had to insult my effort of not leaving things in the past. What ive been tryin so hard to do so very much for most of the time ive been with him. I unsult him publicly out of my pain and despair. He leaves me this:
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Days like this, I don't know what to do with myself. All day, and all night. I wander the halls along the walls and under my breath, I say to myself, "I need fuel to take flight"
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Confused still. Full of painful thought that I am inclined to sort through but I cant be asked and I dont even know if its worth it. I could just cry. I am such an emotional wreck, not just now but generally. I've been so full of depression lately, I just hate myself, even though these past few days havent been bad... Feels like I'm going around in ( Read more... ) -
The tiny ray of sunshine in my life...
Clips of Friends singing...
"Your love is like a giant pigeon... Crapping on my heart! La, la, la, la, la, ohhoooohhoooooo"
Lol @ Chandler at the end. "AH, SMELLY CAAATT!!!"
"Went to the store, sat on Santas lap. Asked him to buy my friends all kinds of craappp."
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I've just broken down in tears. I cant help it. Far too much pain and confusion. Last night I was so close to death... I couldnt draw that bath because I knew I would use it to end it all. I cant bear this. Even when I know there are things that might make me smile for a second they are just not worth it... Before I know it that seconds over or it ( Read more... ) -
I dont know how to live but I dont know how to die
Ugh... Im still so shattered from last night. I was told something last night that made me see some people and some things with such confusion. The person who loves and helps me the most is the person that I cant even look at for unimaginable reasons. I have to die... But I cant. HELLLPP. Why was I ever even born? For this insanity? Couldnt go to ( Read more... ) -
Back to college!!!
So I've done the first day back! We had a mock exam and I'm pleased that it could have gone worse : / Minus 6 degrees in the morning today... Very cold. I wore my leather, heeled boots and and I slipped twice and fell on my ass!! Haha. Wasnt funny at the time, at all.
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Happy New Year!!
Hope this year will be a great one! ; )
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It snowed a tiny bit overnight but its a little hard to enjoy the snow and the festivities when you are ill with the flu. Ugggh. Getting better and I've got some flu relief meds thankfully. 3 days till Christmas! Its 3 days for you guys but its an even shorter 3 days for me because we have our main celebrations on Xmas Eve!.. This includes the ( Read more... ) -
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So it feels like Christmas already ( Read more... )
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