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trapped/choked
well, dammit. LJ was acting weird. Don't trust this site much in lieu of recent events. gotta vent somewhere. ex left an "artifact." or even "talisman" by my car today. NOT COOL. I'm gonna move this blog elsewhere, because I ought to... -
I can't even get into all of it
I recovered my LJ. Had previously forgotten the password. LJ had been my ORIGINAL favorite and first social network. I've always respected it so much more than what social media has become lately. So much has happened, and more significantly so in the passed two-years, which have been absolute hell for me. Nearly three weeks ago, I was nearly ( Read more... ) -
An overdue update
I have still managed to wrangle up my resources to keep the house. Working where I do, self sacrifice is requisite, but can be rewarding - I make more than twice what I made at that stupid, shitty newspaper. I now am learning photography, motion graphics, project management, etc.The casino gives us the gifts they give to certain players, so I've ( Read more... ) -
so im still here
So, i'm stil here. I got a better paying job as a graphic artist - several miles away from my township - been commuting illegally for months! I bought a house - a shitty little hovel out on the sticks - by the railyard in ***, New Mexico. I did it initially to be close to my prevoius job at the paper. I bought it in case my ex, a lady twelve years ( Read more... ) -
ripped by dreams
Well, I did get approved with the loan for the downpayment - with no collateral, and no credit no less. My credit score may have been what carried that through. I'm just a basket case right now, as I'm hoping I didn't shoot myself in the foot, and get in over my head ( Read more... ) -
Jumping with no net
I found this tiny, disheveled shack in the town I work in. It's for sale for $35,000, and on about .5 acres. I need $3,500 down right off the jump to buy this house. I can't describe how badly I need and want this. It's close enough to my work that I wouldn't even have to drive, or worry about a car for transport ( Read more... ) -
still with the shit
This labor day weekend, the gf and i had agreed it was our anniversary. It was around this time a year ago we "hooked up," realized we felt more for one another than a piece of ass, and through our insecurities made quite a bit of time and wasted covert efforts at cutting off the other relationships we'd been grooming in the background ( Read more... ) -
Archives are collecting dust...
So, shit....it has been far too long - no real chronology here, just tryin to get shit down ( Read more... ) -
every thing has been pure shit
i has been at least 7 months, since posting. so much shit has gone on i wouldn't know where to begin at the moment. what's going on right now, is the panic of moving out of my girl's place, and of losing her. i wish she could know. i wish someone could ( Read more... ) -
It finally happened....
I finally got arrested for DWI. After a very long run, previous years high-risk, I finally got arrested for DWI. I'm so furious that i'm stoic. I left the combichrist concert with my stupid-ass ex GF from years of yore; she's an IV Meth addict, former stripper, former prostitute, still very loose woman, who i do NOT sleep with. At times we have ( Read more... )