these pictures keep smiling back at me, we were smiling, and so sincerely, so genuinely,
these were the smiles of forever
so I threw them across the room that day.  and now they're back, haunting me like the ghost of our relationship.

and now, my soul I expose to you.
this poem (that I had turned into a song, but is now to stay in raw form) is simply ( Read more... )

for the record, I meant every. single. word I said.

so, I pray SO hard to God that you did too. I honestly do.
because I WILL follow through...

EDIT: and so I have.

you know what I love about puzzles?

all of the pieces stay right where they are.  they stick together, and whatever world they create, they are loyal to.  and no one ever questions why or how puzzles work out because it.  just.  fits.

you know what I love about real life, though?

it keeps you on your toes... ;)

I know for a fact that I would completely be absolutely horrible to myself if it weren't for my two saviors on earth: my momma, and my platonic soul mate: sarah nicole lodwick.

I can truly, one hundred percent, from the bottom of my [broken]heart say that I literally have NO idea what would happen if I didn't have them.

You guys are my world, since ( Read more... )

I think my heart just fell into my stomach. it's being digested right now, and I feel like vomiting.

woooooooooooo I'm home soon,

but I'm taking a shower now

then doing homework

sick and tired

then guitar class

I hate the internet.
and especially alcohol.

and I just can't wait to be home.  even if it is only for 3 hours.  I get to be there for my ang, and I can finally tell my mom everything, and eat good food, and see my brother, and pick up jenna ( Read more... )

I just got done with a job interview that I am really happy about!

but DANGITALL, while driving, my mind wanders and the songs that come on the radio mirror what I try to hide

but jump back to happiness, I am coming home tomorrow! be there from about 4:30- 7:30!

jump back, it's for a death

jump back, I'll get to see mah ANG, and my amazing family, ( Read more... )

today was actually a really good day!  it's been a WHILE since I've laughed so much and so hard and I have awesome people to thank for it :)

hahahaha, then jenna and I went on a little 'adventure', we have the best adventures ever... ohhhh how amusing!   but now I know my way around the entire mall.. right jennahead?  hhahaha

then, I watched "The ( Read more... )

I involuntarily force it into physicality.

HOW did I not have enough sense to be angry?

contrary to the popular belief (of both others and heretofore, myself) I do NOT want to be wrapped around your finger.

and now, from my head to yours:

(ha, and this is part of my own epiphany too) it finally dawned on me yesterday- you CHEATED on me! and I'm the one treating you like gold, while you ( Read more... )