After all that's happened this year I thought I could start over and have a decent Christmas.  I've never really thought I've had an excellent one and that when I did, I would know.  This year isn't going to be it and it's only 8AM in the East Coast.  Thanks a lot to thin walls I woke up in the morning hearing my uncle talk about my "situation".    ( Read more... )

I feel horrible today.  I thought things would be easier but right now I'm less than hopeful.  Its a lot harder to move on than I thought. It's my last night in my sorority house.  I'll be back for things I forgot but not much else.  I feel like I'm in the same place i was 3 years ago before I turned 18.  Reading everything that I've written here ( Read more... )

ChasTeL 2 2: fuck you should be able to relate if anything ( Read more... )

Its so hot here. Boyfriend and best friend suck. I have neither.

wow life is just not working out. this morning woke up at around 6 to get ready to go to csulb for a placement test. I didn't find out how long the test was going to be until late last night...or even worse...really really early this morning. Got there and realized that I never got my admission ticket in the mail, but they were able to make me a ( Read more... )

being 18 is the biggest load of bullshit in my life. i came home at 10:30 and my mom locks me out. she finally lets me in after 20 minutes of calling her and harassing her. she bitched and blah blah blah. i told her that if she suspected me of doing stupid shit ill start giving her something to worry about ( Read more... )

Turning 18 doesnt feel that different.  I guess it's all in your head.  I did a lot of firsts last night though...driving around at 1-3 in the morning, sleeping over at a friends house for the first time, going to Laguna for the first time.  It was great.  Laguna is gorgeous and perfect.
Last night was also the first time i saw how Alex is towards ( Read more... )

I have never so frustrated in my life. You know how one minute you're on the top of the world and when things start going down you just cut some slack until everything just blows. I was there...then after the Senior breakfast today I surfed my ass off. HB was BIG. I surfed my brains out for an hour and 1/2. Didn't eat shit once, but now I'm ( Read more... )

this week has gone by too fast. I'm going to assume that's the case because of the three day weekened we had last week. Tuesday and Wednesday after school I was over at Grant's. We hung out and watched movies...the usual. Rachel got her licensed. Of course she's with Alex again. She left last night to go to Oxnard to go to a concert with him ( Read more... )

this weekend was awesome.  saturday i met grants older sister.  gosh she has big boobs and she's really pretty too.  sunday night julie, kat, hannah, and i decided to have a bonfire.  we couldn't find a pit, but we went bonfire hopping.  Before that I had spent 2 hours looking for a birthday present for rachel's 18th.  I ended up just getting her ( Read more... )