Josh is not great.  He scares me actually. I really can't stand him at all right this moment. Then again i've been lying on my part.  Saturday night I decided to call him and tell him not to expect us to go out or anything.  If we did it would have to wait until after July because I'll be gone for 20 days and he's gotta go to Hawaii. I have no ( Read more... )

Prom was gorgeous.  Josh was soo great.  alex, rachel, josh, and i ended up going to karl strauss for dinner which was great.  My new favorite food is cajun chicken pasta. mm good! I danced a lot more than I thought i would.  Josh danced better than I thought! During slow dances it was really really really romantic.  I was just shocked that I would ( Read more... )

I have felt like crap the past 3 days. My stomach feels like its going to come out of my mouth over half of the time.  So today I did something I never thought I would do.  I had to do it for me.  After school I felt like I had to just go for it because I had been thinking about things so much in the past 3 days that I've barely had sleep or energy ( Read more... )

3 days until prom.  I still don't have a dress.  I did get my tickets finally though. It's a start.  I'm not excited at all about it. It's spose to be romantic and beautiful and all i can do is think about something else. Things that are not possible...or at least not in this lifetime. I keep thinking about the past and how I need to let it go ( Read more... )

So it turns out that Josh is interested in Hannah.  I'm totally happy about it. I don't Everyone thinks they're going to be cute together.  Hannah doesn't seem that interested.  She says she isn't be i think she wil be once she gets to know him.  Rachel has been with Alex a lot.  He asked her out over the weekend so they are officially a couple.  ( Read more... )

Yesterday was so much fun!! Daniel and Josh dug a big hole in the sand.  I was tanning my back without my top on and asked josh to help me put some sunscreen on.  He and daniel ended up putting a good one inch layer of sunscreen on my back and drew pictures.  i was like a magna doodle for them for about 1/2 an hour until the scraped it all off me ( Read more... )

feeling happy again today. i swear im like bipolar or something. I went shopping early this morning and bought myself a purse. that again will keep me happy for the next 2 days and then i gotta figure out whats next. going to the beach in a few. gonna meet up with josh and friends and surf my brains out. the only time that i actually feel like ( Read more... )

Josh has called me everyday this week. he reminds me of my ex robert who was smothery. I'm starting to get nervous because it shows that he really wants to be with me and it's really nice and a big change from my last relationship. I know if I go out with him he'll be there...like 100%. He'll call (hopefully only now and then) and he's already ( Read more... )

Josh called today and asked if I wanted a corsage.  OMG! I don't think I've ever had a guy offer to get me something. I'm not even kidding. I told him it wasn't important, but he's getting one anyway. It's so sweet. We talked about prom and stuff and you know what? I'm actually very excited now. This could turn out good. I wish the timing was ( Read more... )

We went out shopping for dresses today. One dozen fittings and nothing. what a bust. At lunch Rachel and I talked about kissing. If you're a guy reading this you'd better take notes if you dont know any of this already ( Read more... )