i cut
i bleed
all for your lack of love
for me

So this weekend has totally sucked ... Andy was gone all of it b/c of the rock the ink show and i could have been there yesterday but he didnt want Paige there till he went on and then decided when we were leaving like wtf is that about. I just feel like I'm losing everything I ever enjoyed in my life. I have 1 friend that I don't see very often ( Read more... )

i'm really leaving andy this time ... i know i have said it a bunch of times before but i am really doing it ... i'm not fucking happy, niether one of us please each other in the bedroom aspect of it and i'm just constantly depressed and he could care less about it ... i dunno i can't even write right now ... although he got fucking pissed right ( Read more... )

i feel like mine and andy's relationship is beyond hope .... he's not happy .. im not happy ... and there are certain things i want out of life and a relationship that i don't think he is willing to even try and offer me. he is so caught up in everything i don't do for him that he can't even hear me. he doesn't want to lose Paige but at this ( Read more... )

why does everything have to change ( Read more... )

I've been thinking a lot lately .. and I mean a lot ... I've been just thinking about why I am so uncontent most of the time. I've been making a more concious effort to be a happier person but that's not something I should have to try at it's something that should just be effortless. I know some of the things that make me unhappy but I sometimes ( Read more... )

I don't know why but lately a lot of issues from my past have been coming up. Maybe it's part of finding out who I am. It's a lonely process and I hate it. I'm not even sure I'll know when I've found me! Maybe it's just finally being comfortable with yourself. Which I'm really close too ... I just really want to get on this diet and exercise ( Read more... )

So all my feelings about that girl Sarah turned out to be right. Andy told me last night that he cheated on me with her. They kissed and that he lied a few times about where he was and hung out with her, also that he had formed a crush on her. He is getting rid of her she is going to be out of our lives for good. I still think I have the right ( Read more... )

So I'm looking for the pando folder that has a video in it and I see the Deploy thing ... I click on it because I figure that hey I can read about it but no when I click on yes it just turns it on!!!! Now I've lost all privacy ... he'll never shut it off and he'll never be fair and give me his passwords to shit so I'm just going to be stuck with ( Read more... )

So I'm sitting here with Paige while Andy is at work and I am soooo mad at him right now. We had a fight earlier and I called him on his cell to let him know that I might order from his work and then as I was saying I love you he hung up on me. So I called him back thinking maybe it was an accident but it wasn't b/c he didn't pick up and then ( Read more... )