always on sunday, i think about the used to be's, the where-am-i's, the memories...

[violettechimera]

i don't like the idea that everyone will come back, tanned and freshfaced and older and full of stories from all of their adventures and i will look down at the ground and be unhappy and decide i made the wrong choices this summer.
i'm terrified that i will blame myself for this.

Comments

[blucrew3]

no regrets, if you're going to screw up then at least it was only for a season. That's not very long! and anyway, you're probably being too hard on yourself.

I believe Finch would agree with me, eh?

[tempteq]

I'm gonna have to agree with the all wonderful Sheryl. Two months. That's all it was. Who cares if you didn't do EVERYthing you wanted to do? I mean, you did SOME of stuff you wanted, right?

I mean, look at it from another angle. Do you REALLY need to have gone somewhere to have grown? Maybe your stories aren't as exciting, but you have to admit, you learnt stuff this summer. Maybe the stories won't be as dramatic, but who gives a crap about drama?

You don't always have to have battle wounds and big stories to tell to have learnt and to have grown. Once in a while, you have these big adventures and it shocks you into learning new things suddenly about yourself, but the slow times are where you probably grow in a different way...and those times are really important too. Don't think back and regret because you must have learnt something these past few months and if you still think it was a horrible waste of your time, then hey, you learnt what you want more of in life and besides, it's over.

Either way, you learnt SOMEthing.

[violettechimera]

did you speak to the finchness?

and thank you.

[blucrew3]

no, but I feel like I know him because I have heard just SO much about him....and I know that he would agree with me that you didn't waste your time!!!