Ok so my daughter is now 17 months. she is so wonderful and is so smart. I got pregnant by Aaron, the BOY I had met in the Summer. I am currently 18 weeks pregnant and due September 2, 2010. Scotty and I had finished our divorce last August so now my name is Vivian Kelly again. I recently had a bonfire of all the old pictures of him and I and I ( Read more... )

So this says I have not wrote in here for like 35 weeks. That's crazy so that's like 9 months or so I guess. Well Scotty and I moved out. We rent a trailor from my Grandpa. Scotty and I are getting married in July but we're not having a big wedding or anything. We are also going to have a baby. It's due around October 8th and I am about tostart my ( Read more... )

I pull my hair, I hurt myself, I don't eat. Looks like I have quite a few disorders in one. The eating thing though is not because I think I am fat or anything, I just never had a big appetite so it makes me look like a 7 year old girl and it keeps me from wearing normal teenage size clothes, I take that back, it's not even not having a big ( Read more... )

I hate how when I swear up and down to myself I won't tell him why I am upset, I ALWAYS END UP TELLING HIM! He pulls it out of me but if I could be like over half the people on this planet then I could cover it up and not sound upset. He always expects to read my live journal when I type in it.. oh well I guess I don't care. I just want to be happy ( Read more... )

I miss my dad, I cried about him 2 times tonight and I have not cried about him in some time now. I wanted to feel imortant like I use to. I guess that's too much to ask for.

Scotty fell asleep and didn't even bother to call me while he was at his moms. But I mean it's not rare so whatever. Some stupid whores are sending him stuff on myspace.
I am ( Read more... )

Yea so I thought things would be good for longer than a week.. YEAAAAA RIIIGHT! I don't know what to do. I love Scotty and I want to be with him. I am all he has besides his mom pretty much BUT every time I turn around I am either in the middle of some shit drama or I am the cause of it. I don't do anything besides love my boyfriend and spend time ( Read more... )

Well the subject pretty much sums it up. Scotty use to do anything to make me happy. Now he doesn't do much. Like tonight, no one will be at his house because his dad is in the hospital, so Scotty is alone and the old lady next door is not at my house, it would be a perfect night for him to come over, But he doesn't. I am not worth the walk I guess ( Read more... )

Yea I can't ever think of a subject lol. Oh well anyways. I don't even know why I bother writing in here. I am glad no one reads it though because it's like a diary but it's not so dorky looking. Ya know?
Scotty has been dissapointing me a lot lately. Maybe I am unhappy because of it? I wouldn't be happy without him but I am not happy right now. So ( Read more... )

yea it is late but it is worth staying up 2 update this thing. but yea anyways this monday will be 2 weeks that i have been unhappy. i dont even know why i am unhappy. i love scotty i dont think it is the relationship between me and him but i dont know. lately it's been all about his truck, i try to help him, i surprise him and buy him peices for ( Read more... )

I am kind of scared of Scotty physically...

But shh.. don't tell him...

I am also very unhappy and I have no idea why, I don't think it's Scotty but I really don't know what it is..

I am worried...

I guess you could sum some of this up by saying I am intimidated by Scotty's actions :-/