I feel like I just talked to Vampy five minutes ago. But really, it was this time last year, the day or so after Valerie died and we talked on the phone, and I poured my heart out about how guilty I felt that I didn't save my sister, all the ways I felt I could and should have saved her and didn't, all the guilt I felt for not taking her fears seriously, all the guilt I felt for years of being the one that was ok while she suffered, and also protected me.
And vampy told me to stop; that she had wasted years on feeling guilty over her mom's death until she let it go and forgave herself for not having some supernatural ability to have saved her. She told me Val ran a risk with her mental health meds because of how they had to cross that blood brain barrier, but it was a necessary risk. She told me that Val did more than most people; that she got to live in NYC, that she was married and divorced, that we traveled together, that she was a writer and a teacher; that she lived the best life she could.
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I heard the news earlier. The first think I thought was that now she was with her mother and her beloved dog. ♥
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And vampy told me to stop; that she had wasted years on feeling guilty over her mom's death until she let it go and forgave herself for not having some supernatural ability to have saved her. She told me Val ran a risk with her mental health meds because of how they had to cross that blood brain barrier, but it was a necessary risk. She told me that Val did more than most people; that she got to live in NYC, that she was married and divorced, that we traveled together, that she was a writer and a teacher; that she lived the best life she could.
Anyway, we talked for a long time, ( ... )
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