certainly an interesting semester. You know that commercial where time is happening in fast motion and people are dressing up some bummed out kid. I think its some anti-drug propaganda, but yeah that's how I feel.

Stationary, watching a lot of things going on around me at a pace too fast to comprehend it all.

i like the people i met this semester, ( Read more... )

Is and has always been whats kept me alive ( Read more... )

I am trying to nail down what t is that I am feeling right now. I feel i am driving down an unfamiliar road, catching sights and sounds as I pass them. Yet I don't know where I am driving to and If I should stop. Umass brings such interesting people and I want to be part of that. People with passion and ideals about life and how to live it. There ( Read more... )

clarity comes at the edge of memory. what us this we search for? we cannot call it by name because words do not suffice. i think the connection we make when we relate to others is beyond us. the stronger the compatible emotion the more potent the force. its like, we exist really just to create ....energy...a fuel source, for what?

school started. classes are fine. been bumping into a lot of people so thats nice. I am looking for something,and I don't know what it is. some connection. something to look ahead to, i think ( Read more... )

i am finding a lot of friends are popping up when I open my eyes to them. Why do I isolate my esteem to one person? Maybe its friends that I distrust? I was pretty bitter about leaders and I guess more the fact that my lifestyle as a kid forced me to be disconnected with anyone I got close to. Like a vagabond always moving. Now I don't have to move ( Read more... )

i am finding that the more i learn and develop a workable theory on how the world works and living life the more i disagree with everyone. hanging out with the family was just depressing. is the pursuit of knowledge really worth this isolation? I can only know what i know, the more i study pol sci, philosophy, psychology etc the more confident i ( Read more... )

Learning brings me so much joy. Learning opens so much doors for me. I feel that as I write and study and interpret, different paths of a greater existance suddenly pop out of the abyss. We can go through life with a 9-5, get in our 40 hours, go home and exist. Or we could learn, create, form our very existance. That sounds much more preferable ( Read more... )

I had just stumbled upon an excellent metaphor for our life. To help alleviate those concerned with their state of being. Basically ( Read more... )