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I am so exhausted. I'm constantly at work. 51 hours this week. Thursday will be my first day off in 11 days. I'm going to sleep all day long. Had to postpone my trip to see Dave. Had to push it back a week. It seems so far away. I miss him and I really want to fall asleep in his arms. It would be so nice just to not have to worry about anything for ( Read more... ) -
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I'm worried about M. He definately has a drug problem. He used to smoke pot every once in a while. Now it defines him. Everything is does, he has to be high before it happens ( Read more... ) -
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So, I just spent the last 2 hours of my life bawling my eyes out. I don't know why. I don't know what started it. All I know is that it has been the 2 toughest hours I've faced in a long time. Two hours fighting myself. No cutting, no smoking and that is all I wanted to do. Thank God Zach was here or I would have given into both. I don't know what ( Read more... ) -
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i wanna know wha'ts wrong with me. I was finally dating this wonderful guy named Chase. He treated me well, great in fact. We got along well. We had so much fun being with each other. I broke up with him a month ago because of religious differences. We got back together after a few weeks. It was obvious that we still cared for each other very ( Read more... ) -
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So I still can't get down what happened at Christian's party the other night. As I said before, it is nothing major. It is just uncomfortable and since it left no major consequences, it is no big deal. However, I will tell about the next morning. I believe it was the 19th. I had to run by MIke's apartment to pick up something I needed for school. ( Read more... ) -
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It's funny. This website used to be my life. I was on it all day long; I updated at least once a day, sometimes more. And it always helped me organize my thoughts and feelings on whatever was happening. So why don't I use it anymore? If it keeps me sane and in control then that should be a good thing, right? I think it's because LJ holds so many ( Read more... ) -
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I used to write here all the time. Everyone knew everything that was going on in my life. I miss just sitting down and writing my thoughts and feelings and getting everything out like I used to. I'm so busy now that I don't feel like it. I'm too tired or getting ready to run off to some place else. I just need to take a break from everything for a ( Read more... ) -
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So, i'm still not updating as much as i planned. I'd like to update more. Work is going well. It's a bit on the boring side but it works. I'm enjoying it for the most part ( Read more... ) -
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I regret to say I don't update as much as I used to. This used to be the one place where I could lay my thoughts out in front of me and see what was really going on when it wasn't all jumbled inside my head. I could also get others reactions and their thoughts on my problems. Since when did I start bottling everything back up inside of me again? I ( Read more... ) -
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Diese eine hübsche raue Übersetzung aber hier es geht. Nur eine schnelle Aktualisierung. Ich habe eine Aufgabe am Chattanooga Choo Choo. Ich arbeite in Einzelhandel und am Modellzugmuseum. Joel und ich sind aufgelöst worden. Ich habe nur nichts davon aufgestellt. Ich fühle mehr allein als je. Ich bin nicht beschäftigt genug nicht, einen männlichen ( Read more... )