I will never be okay with my life. I've ruined some wonderful people and I really want to just change my name and move to hungary/romania and be done with everyone.

I am so done.

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I notice it again. I've never been good at noticing it, but when I can feel it...when I can notice it...that's when I know it's bad. Troy used to notice it. I really am bipolar. For no reason my moods will shift in such an extreme way that all I can think is that I wanna die. I'll be happy and bubbly then a minute later I hate myself, I hate my ( Read more... )

I don't know how to handle my life right now. I need to get a job, I need to fix my friend habits, I need to be a better girlfriend to Hunter, I need to call Bryan, I need Thomas back in the US so I can stop freaking out and I need to see him and hug him, I need my permit, I need my lisence(sp?), I need to do my homework, I need to spend time with ( Read more... )

I've never really been one for tears ( Read more... )

So I've graduated. Yay to say the least. I finally did it. On Saturday. Hunter got me a new phone. A KRZR. It's great. And my family got together to get me this laptop. I love it! And at grad night I won a portable DVD player. I'm really excited. But with three monsters left I hope I can leave this room at some point. Or at least get some sleep. ( Read more... )

i want to spend the rest of my life with him. he's my bestfriendand he's my world. he's given me everything in his power and he does everything he can for me. i want to give him everything possible! he's wonderful and i love him ( Read more... )

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Friday: I hung out w/ Hunter...duh. Hunter, Paul, and I went over to Katie's for this party she was throwing. It was stupid. A bunch of dumb, meat-headed jocks and slutty girls. All drinking and trying to act cool. It disgusts me. Ew! I'm turning into Hunter. lol. Not that it's a bad thing. Just...stupid slutty people annoy me. Then I stayed over ( Read more... )

This year was the first year I've had a boyfriend on Valentine's Day. I was sort of against it until this year too. But Hunter and I hung out the whole day! almost. We went to lunch and he gave me this dinosaur puppet. When I put my hand inside I there was a ring inside. A saphire between to diamonds. It's really simple and totally gorgeous. Then I ( Read more... )