I made a new LiveJournal and if you're lucky I might just let you read it.
hxc_ern is the name

So over the last two days, I've had long conversations with my mother, which incase you guys don't know, we don't talk that much and don't get along really either.

Talk number one came last night while I was eating dinner after work. We were talking about the fact that my mom's been unemployed since my birthday (Oct. 26, 2006) and how she might ( Read more... )

as i stare into the dark space that i call my room, one thing in particular comes to my mind. i'm not going to say what and no one knows what it is, not even my best friend. i just wish that i had an answer or a solution to this madness that i call my life. i don't know what to do or say anymore and its eating me on the inside. i want so ( Read more... )

I haven't said anything in here in a while but I'm smiling today.

I got my truck, which means I'll have my own vehicle again.
I start my second job on Monday which means I'll have more money and won't be in debt.

Boo yah.

i always said that i would make mistakes
i'm only human and that's my saving grace

Things have been crazy for me since this new year started. I'm already hating it but I know that eventually things will get better and I have the greatest friends in the whole entire world so they make life's challenges a whole lot easier to deal with right now ( Read more... )

So it still seems impossible for me to get a full solid night's sleep. It never fails that I wake up a few times during the night and sometimes its only for a few minutes and other times its for at least an hour, sometimes more. If things could go back to normal then I would be a happy camper but I don't know if they ever will. I've been having a ( Read more... )

Tomorrow morning marks the start of another New Year where I will most likely upset everyone and become an even bigger fuck up than I already am. I've come to the conclusion that no matter how hard I try I end up pissing people off. Why do my feelings get pushed aside? Why do I always have to be the one to please everyone? God, I'm only one fucking ( Read more... )

So I never write in here anymore and I'm not a hundred percent sure why. I got over the fact that no one reads this and that no one truly cares other than a few people in my life. I bought another real journal and have been writing in that when I get down so that I don't have to share my secrets with the world. Everytime I say that I'm going to ( Read more... )

Today marks year number five since my brother's been dead. I always tell myself that things will get easier but they never do. It seems that as the older I get the more I need him in my life to guide me and give me advice about things that I can't talk to certain people about. I wish that he was hearing watching me grow and helping me rather than ( Read more... )

So I want to write all of the time and everytime I open this journal, I can never bring myself to write. I did, however, write in my personal journal the other day. That makes another one that I ended and put back in the drawer with all the other ones. Maybe next summer I can finally burn them all and end the past and start over completely fresh ( Read more... )