Comments | wakinghearts: Me, at the moment.

wakinghearts

Me, at the moment.

Jul 18, 2009 22:00

I want to cry, crawl into my bed and not come out until I can gain control of whatever body I have left! When will that be? When will I feel me, and not some fat piece of lard ass that controls my every move ( Read more... )

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dancemachine16 July 19 2009, 05:34:13 UTC

I know how you feel love! I feeel the same way everyday of my life!
I see so much of myself in you and I know we can push through this! Think of yourself, think who you're doing this for and push to your limit!

xxxoo!!
be strong girl!

wakinghearts July 19 2009, 16:07:06 UTC

Thanks so much girl! I feel a lot better today...you're right, we will break this cycle!
xoxo

Re: Me, At The Moment sknegrlctrl July 19 2009, 08:13:31 UTC

I SWEAR this used to be my exact cycle. My heart goes out to you right now cause I know! Its hard ( ... )

Re: Me, At The Moment wakinghearts July 19 2009, 16:05:54 UTC

Thank you so much hun! Your words mean more than you know! You're right, today is a new day and I will fast my way through this day. Loves back to you!
xoxo

bikiniblonde July 20 2009, 05:40:48 UTC

I could have written the exact same thing, and it'd be my life. I hope you're doing better today... I'm sure you are, because I know you're stronger than what you wrote here! You're a part of this journal because we all love you :) I definitely don't know where I'd be at if I didn't have you to support me.

It's a new week, so make it count. The less you eat, the better you will feel. Don't forget it.

Xoxo, Lex

wakinghearts July 20 2009, 15:45:21 UTC

You are seriously amazing! Thanks so much love!
xx

xoanabellaox July 21 2009, 04:52:53 UTC

Hang in there sweetheart. I do the same thing at night when no one is around (except I don't purge it up because I hate puking more than anything). Just try to improve each day little by little. I will get better.. It HAS to get better. I'm here if you need someone to talk to <3

wakinghearts July 21 2009, 15:24:21 UTC

Thank you so much, that means a lot! <3

perfect_mayhem July 22 2009, 14:38:17 UTC

Hey you, don't be so down on yourself. I have learned that being down on yourself never helps you regain control. We all have bad days, bad weeks, and bad months. That DOES NOT mean we are not worthy of the ones we hold close. This journal, your city, and your family are all veryyy deserving of you. You just gotta stay strong, thats all. Keep thinking thin. Always think about yourself, not others. In the end, the only person you have to answer to is yourself, prove to yourself that you can do this. It might also help to take a break from the scale for a week or so, get yourself back on track and surprise yourself in a week by how much you have lost. Just a suggestion. I have complete faith in you, you CAN do this. And you DESERVE to be happy.

Im here. Always <3

wakinghearts July 22 2009, 15:18:32 UTC

That means a lot! I need to keep telling myself to focus more on me, be more selfish, you're right, in the end the only person I need to answer to is myself!
This is what triggers a lot of my food and body issues, I'm so consumed by little worries and other people's actions (e.g. My brother in law) that I use my eating habits as a way to express my feelings...it's a horrible habit, I hate it.
Thanks so much for your thoughtful words!
<3