this is turning into a very painful experience.a little thing that might be a light at the end of the tunnel, i may be moving down to so-cal either in the next few weeks or the next few months depending on what my friend john's land lord says. *sigh* i'm getting tired of having to convince myself that life is worth living everyday...

i swear to god i am dying here. im not going to last much longer here if something doesnt change. i think im starting to go a little bit insane ( more than usual) and im breaking down more and more often and every couple of times it gets more severe. oh well worse comes to worse i have 2 options, go live with john is things work out, or, the

not too much has been up. recently i figured how to use the BART and the buses around here so if i can get the money to use them i will have a lot more mobility so that could be sumthin to do. still working on getting that job at Walgreen's, i just need to get my resume fluffed up a bit and then i will see if i get the job or not. i had a great ( Read more... )

ok not too much is different in my life quite yet, but some changes are happening ( Read more... )

ok not too much has been going on. i went and saw my dad last month that was fun. and a friend of mine came up from so-cal which was very enjoyable so i wasn't alone for a week however, it went by way too quickly. now the only thing that i am really up to is i'm trying to get my drivers license and i have been talking to a friend of mine trying to ( Read more... )

I went up to see my dad about 2 weeks ago so that was pretty fun. since then i have just been sitting around not doing much as usual. the redhead doesnt want to talk to me for some reason. alison is coming up to visit in less than a week. i dont know what we are gonna be doing for my moms vacation this week. i am currently looking for a job. and i ( Read more... )

I'm tired.

im bored, my cell phone wont quit giving me trouble and im not sleeping well. lol whats new. i have been trying to get my mom to find another job offer closer to so-cal and she hasnt been against it so thats good news. i should be going up to see my dad this month and im going on a cruise to mexico at the end of march. so i have a couple of things ( Read more... )

ok so im back in nor-cal. everything is the same as when i left. mom still naggs non-stop, little brother wont do what i tell him, and i still sleep for crap. i get back and my cell phone feels the need to stop working so i have only been able to get incoming calls and i could barely send txts. so i went and had it replaced and the new one works ( Read more... )

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