Well what a year to remember and to wash away. My personal life was more full of drama than in recent years past. My relationships with men have been unpredictable and confusing. I was told I might need chemo and that I was cured ("for now") all in the same year. I dropped out and returned to school, happy with both decisions ( Read more... )

Seems to describe just about all of it. One more past.

I'm very very broke. I only have one job. School is out for a little while. It's 75 degrees here in the middle of December. Boys suck. I am having a blast using my time to do the things I love. I can't remember being so happy any time in the past year. I was told today by my doctor, "You're cured - for now." Life feels simpler. I can't wait to see ( Read more... )

Most of my life I haven't liked girls. I didn't like being one. We had to deal with puberty - the weight gain, the growing boobs and learning that you can't squeeze through that same space that you could a year ago and the dreaded mess of a period. And then there was learning what it meant to be a woman (still learning by the way). I didn't want to ( Read more... )

Psycho ex-boyfriend!!! AHHHHHHHH!!! Please, please, please let this be the final freaking phone call!!!!! Hit man for hire anyone? How about just a witness protection program? The one thing I hope I take from all of this insanity is the ability to recognize craziness before I get involved!!

I am a visual learner. Always have been. To the extent that my memories are often photographic. Perhaps because of this hardwiring, it has always been very very difficult (I might venture, damn near impossible) for me to learn another spoken language. I don't process things auditory. I read words that are completely foreign that I don't know how to ( Read more... )

Things I'm fed up with ( Read more... )

So here we are in San Diego and we have had a flash flood alert since Sunday. Whatever, yeah right. Until today. Today I went to work at 5am. It was raining. It hasn't stopped raining. Lightened up every now and then, sure. But it has not stopped. The side walks here at school are all flooded and rain always puts me in a down mood. There is no sun ( Read more... )

Briefly for anyone interested. He went insane. Quite literally. It scared me and I could no longer even try to be his friend or be a support in his life. It still disturbs me because I never experienced anything like that before. But most of all it makes me very very sad.

I'm rather sad and lonely right now. I miss being close with someone I trust and I miss the trust we had. I'm sad we lost it and I'm sad you are so far gone. Very sad about that. I miss a warm body next to me in bed and I miss really great sex (haven't had that in a very long time). I miss telling someone everything about myself. I miss Tinker. I ( Read more... )