Lester's alternator died!!!! Boo!! $75 for towing and probably $300 for parts and labor. Could have been worse. Brian is my hero who bought me pizza, wild cherry Pepsi and hot cocoa. That made the night a little better than worse.

We always meet at Starbucks and I'm the only one who ever gets anything with coffee in it. Usually we drink tea but sometimes hot chocolate or caramel apple cider. We talk about the things that make us laugh and the things that make us cuss. We talk about sex and animals and the desert. We bitch and we laugh. Tonight we invited someone new who ( Read more... )

I want to be honest with myself. I haven't smoked in a coupe of weeks and I want to do that too. So I'm going to try to do both at the same time ( Read more... )

Very briefly ( Read more... )

We sit at the back of the room untied after a long summer with stories of unstable roommates and failed relationships. My companion spots him in the front row and points him out. A simultaneous, spontaneous burst of giggles ensues interrupted by mutual "He is mine!"s. That boy with the shy smile on his face from Walnut Creek is who holds our ( Read more... )

I just can't give myself. I feel incapable. I am emotionally disabled.

How do you explain to someone how painful it is to just let yourself feel completely? How do you tell them that truly caring for someone hurts so badly it make you cry even when it feels so wonderful? How do you justify being an emotional recluse?

You can't save me.

I miss my sister
And all her quirky ways
I miss my sister
And all the things we never got to say

I miss my sister
With her balance of beauty and grace
I miss my sister most
When I see my face.

"Individuals change the world", events change the world ( Read more... )

Highlights of the night-

Forgetting someone's birthday equates to not caring about them at all (even though you wished them happy birthday the night before and told them it was because you'd forget when it actually arrived)

He put everything he had into the relationship and got absolutely nothing in return. NOTHING.

Oh yes, and I am not even ( Read more... )

Why is it that the worst sequence of events chose to happen simultaneously? I just want it to be easy. The decision has been made but I'm not ready to follow through or to suffer the possible consequences. This is bad. This sucks. Fuck me now.