I pulled up to the house. Nervous, excited more than anything. I turned off my car and the song on my radio continued. But not from my radio. It was coming from inside the house. And I reached to it to mean something.

I've decided I'll move somewhere tropical when I graduate. Where my cats don't require a 6 month quarantine. And dive to support myself. Someday I'll get a real job if I feel the need.

Go on vacation with somebody if you want to know just how good of a relationship you have with them.

I really should never go on vacation with another boyfriend's ( Read more... )

For a while I kept wondering when my scuba obsession would die and when I would find some new, fervent passion to believe in for a while. And maybe it still will. But I've done 60 plus dive and I feel it is just a scratch on the surface. I feel young and sheltered. I feel I will live to see the world's most quite, secret, and beautiful places. I ( Read more... )

Mostly, I'm a better observer than I am a participant ( Read more... )

Is there a direct or inverse relationship between the two. Often it seems that there is much too little time and so many words that don't even begin to describe its effect on you. And other times, it seems to drag on, painfully, and you find yourself at a lack of words that would be appropriate or palatable ( Read more... )

My lack of entries is almost entirely due to my exhaustion and burn out. All I do is work. Now I'm not complaining. I like it. I like my work and I like working hard. However it leaves me tired and slightly empty - working 13 hour days. So the very last thing I want to do is come home and sit in front of the computer. The very last thing I want to ( Read more... )

Something is very wrong. Whether it is just me or something else in the world, I'm not sure. But I am very off. I'm incredibly anxious. Ever since last night. I literally could not sleep. I'm normally out like a rock come midnight but I was still pacing around at 3am last night so I sat down and smoked. Had fun but still no sleep at 5am. Have you ( Read more... )

Way to busy to begin anywhere. But there were some things I wanted to remind myself of ( Read more... )

I believe in patterns. You all know this by now. But somehow I'm still searching for a reason to be in this relationship. I looking for an excuse for it not to be the same relationship I had with Alex. The differences are very different and that brings me comfort but the similarities are frightening. There is this lack of emotional connection. I ( Read more... )

Well, life has been extremely busy and I've only got a breath to update in as it is ( Read more... )