wow, awake early are we now mr. Fox. Yes indeedy. The whole job thing has been fruitless, although today i'm turning in about 4 or 5 applications. I spent several days accidentally in New Orleans with some friend, saw some street performers around the fair grounds and many a gorgious woman.... sigh... i hate beign single. Oh well, that's my ( Read more... )

what to say? We feel strange. Outside and alone, but different than ever before. I feel a pain deep within my soul releasing and letting go part of me that i believed would never be free. The mention of her name or memories to keen still strike pain, but somethings changed. I'm changing ( Read more... )

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ( Read more... )

wow. it seems i can never keep up with a journal. Life takes me and i go. with the things i do, i follow and so life travels ( Read more... )

what is normal? When we gaise upon ourselves, how is it should we see the person we're becoming ( Read more... )

when will this viscious machine we all call time, FUCKING KILL ME!

The Monk
You scored 36% Cardinal, 56% Monk, 38% Lady, and 29% Knight!

You live a peaceful, quiet life. Very little danger comes you way and you live a long time. You are wise and modest, but also stagnant. You have little comfort, little food and have taken a vow of silence. But who needs chatter when just sitting in the cloister of your abbey ( Read more... )

sigh so many things to say and no way to express them. I'm lost in a cloud of uncertainty wondering at what can be achieved in a state of confusion and helplessness. Wow look at this, i find a person that i like! WOW me, sid fox finding someone who actually likes him! Well guess what? My car is totally dead and i have no idea how to fix it. i ( Read more... )

i just watched prozac nation again. i gives me a real sense of how i feel. it's why i'm writting this a 5 in the morning. I have the feeling again. the inescapable feeling of despair, self hate, and lack of hope for anything. I'm so blind to people, i'm truely child. I'm to often told i'm weak, or too nice...How the Hell can you be to nice? ( Read more... )