new livejournal, under the name, foreverfindsme.

today has been my day off, it's nice to not really have anything to do. i'm running on only a few hours of sleep, so perhaps i'll go take a nap soon. addison stopped by for a few hours today. we ran a few things over to my grandmother's, then came back and watched, "the virgin suicides", she likes that movie more than i do. i think we went ( Read more... )

so, yeah, it looks like i've ruined everything. i let insecurity destroy something could have been really good. things may go back to normal, but i know she'll always think about this and probably be even more weary to ever be anything other than friends. god, this is just fucking great. i'm going to go collapse now. maybe she'll call today ( Read more... )

as the footsteps grow louder ( Read more... )

today has been pretty good, work went by pretty quickly and was fun. kari and i played bingo for awhile. i have no plans for tonight, i'll probably take a nap so i won't be tired when i have to go get kristina. tomorrow holds no plans for jeff, i'll probably go get my check from western sizzlin and maybe spend time with someone. then i'm not ( Read more... )

so the thing is, none of this fucking matters.

i worked 10-5 today, it wasn't a bad shift at all. i work tomorrow as well, then come home to sleep for awhile and then i have to pick kristina up. i wish we could sit down and talk about everything, maybe we will, maybe not. thursday is my only day off, and i'm not sure if she'll want to hang out with me the day after she gets home. anyway, i' ( Read more... )

i started my new job today, it's pretty awesome. i stand around, ring people up, stand some more, go on break, and read. i love it. i'm going to be working 30-40 hours a week, the checks will be good. and it'll be good being able to get some new clothes, go to concerts, and anything else whenever i get my car back. yesterday was kindof a bad ( Read more... )

NO MORE WESTERN SIZZLIN!!!! i cannot express how happy that makes me. i start my new job tomorrow morning, i really hope it's cool, it should be much better than ol' sizz. oh, for anyone interested, i made a new screen name because my old one just simply sucked. it's foreverfindsme0 . i've spend a lot of time thinking today, and i have yet to ( Read more... )

i have a lot of thinking to do. i honestly cannot see this going anywhere if it remains how it currently is. i feel strongly for her, but knowing she likes soo many other people really makes me take a step back and question whether or not the uncertainty is worth it. the more i speak to her friends the harder the decision is to make, i'm ( Read more... )